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things will never be the same again,

without you,you,you and you.

i will experiencing a new kind of friends, new environment.

but that does not mean our relationship will ended as soon as you leave.

as long as we stay connected in anyway,in every possible ways, the ukhuwah will always be in our hearts.

no matter what..

i can't believe i would ever say this again.

i already started to miss you guys...

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hey, i am a stalker, yes i admit it,

and somehow, i feel like u knew it.

what ever i do, i hope u will be okay with it,

because i am not so into you. i do not owned you and i don't think

there will be 'us' or 'we' in so what ever. i will never act or say beyond the limitation. don't ever worry,

you just another person that i randomly like. :)

and i will never fall for you.

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and as for you cik anggun,

kesalahan terbesar awak ialah tidur dlm kereta ketika saya memandu.

itu sahaja.

yang lain bukan salah sesiapa, sebab kita berada di dlm satu keadaan pada emosi & masa yang salah...

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yes,i did cry, but im not surprised.

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PPR Taiping

lahir di hospital swasta,

tadika swasta

sekolah agama swasta.

kolej swasta.

latihan industri swasta,

kerja pertama swasta.

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sebab,

mula2 pilihan.

pilihan.

sebab seterusnya,

tiada pilihan.

sebab tak dapat masuk ke saluran tajaan kerajaan.

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mama papa kata aku anak swasta,

semua pun mahal. beranak mahal, sampai besar pun mahal. hehehe.

sebenarnya,aku tengah nervous tunggu result application untuk disember intake UiTM.

aku ada rasa yang aku tak dapat. asal tah aku pun tak tahu.

tapi i do really hope my instinct were wrong.

aku ada plan untuk kehidupan aku seterusnya kalau aku dapat uitm tu.

but if aku tak dapat, aku tak fikir lagi.

kena fikir ke?

Pending Approval

selama ini aku hanya membantu.

dia suruh buat ini,aku buat.

dia suruh buat itu, aku buat.

secara keseluruhannya, aku tak tahu proses penyiapan kerja secara teliti.

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kali ini, besar galasan yang di berikan.

tapi, akhirnya i feel it's a blessing.

dgn ketiadaan en.s.a.m dan c.h

aku belajar selesai kan itu dan ini.

aku selekeh,kelam kabut dan poyo,tapi aku siapkan.

aku salah, betulkan, salah, kene debik, penat, faham dan faham.

aku gembira mereka bercuti,sebab i gained lots of things.

optimist person always sees opportunities between the problems.

thank you antidotes. you guys rocks!

Associate

semalam,

memang aku bekerja dgn insan tergarang di ofis.

tapi aku rasa dia best,dan sememangnya best!

1. "kalau kau tak tau,ckp je,aku tak pukul kau pun,aku tak usik kau punye,ok?"

2. "kau ni,meh sini,aku taknak kau salah lagi"

3. "kau dengar je ckp aku,aku mane penah salah..hehehe,kau ikut ck aku mesti betuul punye"

4. "betul keputusan aku amek kau jadi staff"

5. "asal hp kau kecik? beli la besar sikit,iphone 4 ke ape ke,kau kan org2 gadget" *huh?*

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aku tak penah kene tengking dgn dia.

aku tak pernah rasa tak best bila kerja dgn die

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aku bukan yg terbaik,

tapi mungkin aku suka yang terbaik dan terbias dgn sifat terbaik.

tapi sifat2 tu tak terserap lagi dlm aku. *sigh*

terlalu banyak lagi perkara aku harus belajar.

aku sedang belajar.

dan aku gembira.

he is not the only reason.

instead of black, i go for white.

instead of slide T, i still choose bulky B.

instead of next two months, i insisted this month.

i have waited for almost a year.

and i don't want to wait any longer than this..

i am stubborn,

and may be silly at the same time.

but i know what i want,

it is good enough.

for me.

E.L

There's so much craziness,

there's too much.

i don't know what kind of feeling i have towards certain peoples.

the feeling i could not explain by words.

weird, isn't it?

i am blessed.

let the feeling stay a little longer.please.... :)

bee tea Ho

Monday is usually a great day.

i always love my Mondays.

but today,it started as a 'just-another-fine' day.

i feel like running away.

merungut.lapar.malas.blurr. *screeeeaaaammmmm*

but it turn out to be a great day after all.

i laughed, i smiled and i think i over-joyed myself at the end of the day.

i am blessed!

i admit that sometimes, the simplest thing would definitely made a huge different.

too much is as bad as too little.

fullstop.

Torch sangat menggoda

satu :

Boy : what are doing?

Girl : looking at the stars.

Boy : same here,i am looking at the three in a row stars.

Girl : we are staring at the same stars. :)

dua :

Boy : saya syg awk lebih dari awak sayang saya.percaya tak?

Girl : haha,boleh ukur ke?mane tau?

Boy : cuba depa-kan tangan. see,tangan saya lagi panjang. i'll always be your extra hand. (sambil buat gaya titanic..hehehe)

tiga :

Boy : kawan rapat,macam saya dan awak.

Girl : kita rapat ye :)

empat :

Guy : kau ni manja sgt la.

Girl : mana ada. :)

Guy : sentimental

Girl : Perhaps

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Quantity Surveyor

entry sebelum ini sangat melucukan bila di baca semula.

i'm such a baby kan?

complaining this, complaining that.

yeah,life is not easy, so?

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lagu raya pasang waktu raya aidiladha?

come on people!

cukup la,dah la pasang time puasa,time raya. aidiladha pun nak pasang juge!

dengar takbir banyak2 kali juga yang seronok :)

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tak sangka pulak mama galakkan aku mencari sang kekasih.

hahahaha.....

mencari pastu jumpa tapi tak dapat.

samalah macam tak mencari kan?

why bother?

what will be will be.

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lagi pun, i am surrounded with single ladies anyway.*tak semua la :P*

oh i forgot to mention, i am a fat lady. hehehehe

and unattractive. :)

but i do love myself.

i still believe that almost impossible, a man will actually fall for me for who i am and by the way i look. hahahaha

*except my ex-bf,i guess he was half-blinded at that time =p*

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i never regret the fact that i left my ex,although he might be the only one that ever fall for me so dearly.

i am sorry it didn't work out for us.

i was with you for 2 years, you made me smile a lot.

and we might find this funny in the next 10-15 years.

Iron man

being a grown up it's totally complicated.

now i can clearly see that.

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i want to own expensive things,(which i have to earn to get it!)

i want to have fun with fun people.

i want to keep my job.i am still loving it.

i want to further my study as soon as i want it to end.

i want to be loved and to love.

i want to have my own family.a tiny one as a start.

i need a car.

i need money.lots of it.

i need a partner who will grow old WITH me.

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there's to much.

i guess i currently just have a ruffled mind.

owh ya, i forgot.

people around me keep on complaining about me.

it's bugging me somehow.

what i wear,

what i eat,

do i look that ugly?

i need to get back with my healthier diet.

''hey you look fat than before"

"kau hodoh dan gemuk."

"mana lah tak sihat badan,hari2 makan mcm tu?"

well,they actually motivated me.

somehow i feel humiliated,

but, if we look at the bright side, they were right.

if the changes they want to see will make me a better person,

why not?

Yahoo!

more is less

less is more...

ever heard it before?

it's actually true.. :D

Fragile

i hate this part.

where my emotion are everywhere.

i feel like crying over unnecessary things.

am i that fragile?

or am i just so tired without realising that i am totally exhausted?

i want to get over it!

and i think that i need a break.

life is hard.

and tough.

but going through this without skipping any scenes

will definitely make me realise,

that life is brief.

i don't want to miss a thing.

so do this part.

Bold 9700!

there will always be the time when you are down.

feels like your emotion flushed away.

and burst all over the place.

at that time.

nothing seems to look right.

in fact,nothing is right.

and no good advice will ever fit.

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the hardest part will be the healling part.

it's so slow!

but time heals!

no worries! :)

The Big Smile *Wink*

i'm not trying so hard beacause i don't have to.

i don't need to

......

i've been thinking about the same thing recently.

i am smiling for the same reason each time.

i am listening to the same music everyday.

but,

i see everything with a different side of angle and enjoy each and every moment of it.

without any sense of hesitation.

i am blessed.

Alhamdulillah.

Stay

i dont care if they never meant to stay.

what does really matter is,

they at least once used to be the person(s) who made me happy

or maybe made me dancing in the shower,

laughing while singing

and smiling while sleeping.

-your life is never tied to anyone,

when people walk away from your life,

that doesn't mean that they are bad people.

it's just their part in your story has just ended.

let it be and live your life!

2 in a row.

yesterday,

it was fun!

i'm with the fun peoples,

extremely best movies.

and good games.

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pakcik, you were right about RED.

bruce willis sgt macho and still hot! fuh~

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most of the time,if we were in an awkward situation,

we usually won't fit in easily right?

but at least try to adapt!

you look a bit silly,by not trying.

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double it's definitely not such a bad idea after all. :)

V for Vendetta

i feel bad for everything i have said.

ok,here's the things.

kenapa, aku nak ignore all the good things about her just because

the rumours i have just heard.

oh,no it's not a rumours.

it's actually true.

everybody make mistakes.

so do i,so does she.

what makes us so damn different?

nothing right?

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i crash someone's privacy and i coincidently did found out the truth about it and i feel bad, i feel the anger burning out and my emotion burst.

crashing someone's privacy pun dah salah tau.

i don't know.i still feel bad.

in fact,if she does what ever she does right now make her happy or make her get all the attention,

siapa aku untuk menghalang?

siapa aku untuk judge semua nya?

siapa aku untuk komen semua benda.

kenapa aku nak sibuk2 search for the truth bila perbuatan aku tu hanya menambah rasa yang kurang enak?

aku terlalu fokus pada masalah.

bukan pada penyelesaian

aku sibuk mengumpul kesalahan,

mengumpul evidence konon.

buat apa?

i'm so stupid.

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Nuri

Sentimental is resulting from feeling rather than reason or thought.

i am a sentimental person.

i knew it,

but i have to slow down, or should i say i have to stop being one?

i have to put an end to it somehow.

i mean i have to put an end to the unnecessary things!

i kept them for so long.and i provided them a huge space.

i threw away lots of thing lately.

and i expected to throw lot more. :)

Melayu Hijau

(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything
and everything and I will always care. Through weakness
and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

N8

jantung aku terhenti selama 2 saat dan kembali berdegup dengan sangat perlahan selama 5 saat.

bila.

terjadi satu insiden spontan semalam. gila.

spontan.kaget.

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Pierre Cardin

do i have to let the whole world know how happy i am right now? =)

no,i don't have to.people may not like it.

they would never feel the same exact feeling.

.....

i do like someone and something.

but i would rather let it be a statement than a question.

it's too risky to make a question out of it.

because i know, i hate not to know the answer later on.

expectation is definitely a disappointment.

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i don't need a feedback,

sebab,

aku tak tahu samada tindakan aku ini betul atau tepat atau salah,

tapi aku yakin dan pasti dengan apa yang aku buat.itu lebih penting.

swatch-swiss

if it's doesn't make me feel to change.

i won't change anything because other's said so.

i won't.

i need a concrete reason to do so.

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i love my job.

i love what i do.

pasti ada suatu cara untuk meng-imbang-kan semua benda dan semua perasaan.

buat salah tak salah.

salah bila tak belajar dr kesalahan.

lagi teruk bila kita tak tahu pun kita salah. :P

cari lah,dan baiki

atau ubah cara untuk melaluinya.

selagi mampu dan punya waktu.

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"rancang dan buatlah apa yang kita suka,tapi jangan suka-suka buat," - (N.M.Rosli,2010)

In Fear and Faith

8th - 10th October 2010.

Redang Venture PUB Bangi 2010.

pergi dan tiba.

bergembira.

ber-snorkeling

ber-panah-panah.

bersukaneka

bermandi - manda

bersoal jawab

bersiar2 di persisiran.

bergambar

pulang.

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kenangan memang telah dicipta.

sengaja mencipta pun ada.

itu,itu,dia,dia,ini,ini,dia dan itu. :)

why, seven, four four, two?

i didn't know that site visit would be that fun!

it was super fun. :)

but the thing is.

why on earth i can't talk straight to the eyes!

i mean...

what i meant was.

ah.

i can't really describe the feeling.

DAMN.

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nervous? naaaa....impossible

butterflies in the stomach, way tooooo much, no la,next!

falling? definite NO. i guarantee.

as far as i am concerned...

the crushing2 things were gone.

but it seems like,

there are three possibilities:

1) the crushing2 did not leave,never did.

2)the feeling was gone,but it pass by seasonally

3)whether i didn't let go the feeling, or i just simply don't want it to go.

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my heartbeat does not beat any faster than normal.

i don't have the butterflies in my stomach

i still eat, mandi and tidur.

so,the feeling does not effect much right?

so why bother? =p

but, what ever it is.

i am glad that i managed to control the feeling and focusing on my aim to work hard and work smart.

i able to face the feeling unconditionally and without hesitation.

and i love myself because i don't act normal. i am being normal.

blackberry curve

dulu aku pernah letak tajuk entri pokok puding. tapi entri langsung tak ada kene mengena.

*mcm banyak je entri dgn tajuk tak ada kene mengenakan. =p

ini lah pokok puding :P :P

saja je.tengah gatal.tengah gatal.

size 7

i have the best time of my life right now.

the best yet to come.

baru dapat result sem 6 dimana exam ade 6 paper

plus industrial training 3bulan

so,sem 6 aku complete kan dlm 9bulan la :)

boleh beranak tau nak completekan sem 6 nie. :P

tapi, 3 bulan industrial training berakhir sgt cpt. :(

hasil dari 9bulan aku mengandungkan sem 6 itu :

GPA : 3.90

CGPA : 3.44

:) :) :)

the feeling was like WHOAA best!

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another one good news is.

dah dapat offer letter jd staff PUB.

awwww~

so jawatan dlm organisasi ialah

pembantu juuukur bahan. weeee~

sign contract percubaan 3bulan.

kalau ade rezeki sambung degree.

bulan 12 bye2 la PUB :(

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hey Mr P.H.

115mm thick brick wall make no different.

nice shoes! :)

Winding journey.

if you could see what i see.

you are the answer to my prayers

if you could feel the tenderness i feel

you would know it will be clear that

angel brought me here.

8-2-3-5

tetap.

yang hitam manis itu pandang tak jemu.

aku pelik

masih kurang mengerti.

yang hitam juga lebih manis.

Pulanglah

orang berahsia sebab?

sebab tak nak orang tahu.

orang nak tahu sebab?

sebab orang tak nak bagi tahu.

kenapa orang tak nak bgtau?

sebab bukan semua orang faham mcm mana yg kita faham.

kenapa org still nak tahu juga?

sebab ia menarik,tertarik dan di tarik.

kenapa mcm tu pulak?

eloborate sendiri.

It's sweet when someone knows every single detail about you. Not because you constantly remind them, but because they pay attention.- (Myra A 2010)

Dear Antidotes

cukup.

3 bulan, tiada satu hari pun sepanjang 3 bulan itu aku rasa mahu mengalah.

mengeluh tu adalah. aku ingat 3 bulan tu lama benar,
rupanya 3 bulan tu mcm 3 hari je. cit. tertipu tau. =p

dari kebodohan aku sendiri yang tidak mahu belajar bersungguh2 semasa bergelar
pelajar diploma ukur bahan dulu aku akan tebus balik.

i know my limit.

aku sangat bersemangat.
sebab keterujaan aku selalunya mengatasi banyak perkara.

salah aku la, tak kuat bila sendiri selama 3thun tu.
sebab itu aku sgt hargai 3bulan ini.

sebab aku kuat bukan sendirian.

orang sekeliling sangat positif.
aku teruja.
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for letting me shine.

for allowing me to show some of my best qualities.

for providing me with the best environment ever,

for having lunch together(so that,i don't have to have my lunch alone in the car :p),

for not leaving me hanging.

for teaching me how to use the photostat machine, fax machine, microsoft excel, how to bind file.

for the first real site visit,

for the mileage claim,

for the laughters,

for being the best weekend tutor =),

for crawling,walking and running WITH me,

the joy.

the brainwashs

the tears,

the allowances,

the duit raya,

the picnic,

and for everything nice,

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

you-know-who-you-are.

i promise i work harder! :)

"Banganglah mesin fotostat ni"

bila kite cakap pasal orang lain belakang2,
mesti kita akan rasa insecure somehow,somewhat

thinking yang sure orang lain pun ckp2 behind our back.

bila kita ingat kat seseorang,
mesti kite wonder if that person thinking about you or not kan?

bile kita suka orang tu,
sure kita ade terselit angan2 untuk grow old together kan?

bila kite ada secret,
pastu mesti somehow kita rase nak bagtau juga2 someone,

walau bende tu secret kan?

kenapa suka complicate things?
kenapa suka konon play safe.?

hehehehehe aku,aku. poyo betul.

after all kan,i admit i don't really have secrets.

sebab, i love sharing.

i love giving.

being safe is the new risk.

so,memang aku suka hidup dlm drama.

tapi come on,realistik sikit boleh? :P

hey.ye aku mengaku yang aku suka dicari.
dan aku tak kisah jika sesiapa terjumpa aku.

but i do hope,
bile org cari aku,jumpa.
next time die cari lagi. :)

poyo la aku ni. enough.

Nasi Arab Kambing :D

aku pelik betul la!

setiap kali aku lawat profile facebook antidotes aku kan,

mesti muncul mutual friend yg sama.
dia random kan?

tapi kenapa dia mesti ade sebagai mutual friend tu.

kenapa eh?

everytime. musykil betul. kelakar pun ada.

i mean, pegi wall org pun ade,
pegi kat home pun ada.

hahahaha jgn terbawa dlm mimpi sudey~

mengarut betul!

Handkerchief

it's been 3 months!

mcm laju gila la masa berlalu. i don't know. aku enjoy. bahagia.

bukan sebab seseorang tapi sebab ramai orang.

aku tidak mahu terlalu selesa, takut aku akan panik bila tidak selesa kelak.

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ok,tiba2 aku nak jadi poyo tahap dewa ke 21 sekarang ni.

that day, buka puasa kat Palm Garden.
i know the crush2 ni dah gone kan....

but then,aku rasa best masa ambil makanan hari tu.
takde ape2 pun,but...but...but.....

it just simply sweet.moment.

bukan aku yg sweet,
bukan die yang sweet.
moment tu je yg sweet.

itu saja.fullstop.

enough.

silly kan?

Vodafone

two more weeks left for me to grab anything within my sight.

for those who didn't get the chances same as i do :

1) I'm sorry for taking the opportunity.

2)i need the opportunity for my own sake.

3) i am sorry for not helping to appoint you.

4) i am sorry for being a very hyper-active talker. i know sometimes i annoyed.

5) although i knew that u want this kind of opportunity so badly but i end up getting it, i am truly sorry.

6) for lots of reason i need to comfort myself in the situation, i dont want to end up being demotivated AGAIN. i want to gain by get through the pain.

7)i am sorry once again, this is me.


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i'll walk with you because we are in the same lane.

but sometimes i need to run a little bit,

don't worry, i am not leaving you,

i'll make sure i look back to make sure u are still there.

because, when you need to run later, i might be at your back.

i do hope that you at least glimpse at me.

Blackberry

apa yang boleh aku kata ialah.

hari ini sangat cool.

mengapa?

tidak ketahuan.

mungkin-kah?

mungkin-kah?

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cerita lain pula,
aku suka lelaki itu berseluar hitam itu.
sangat kemas dan segak.haha

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Si Kancil

every ten minutes,

i'll check my phone. whether ada new messages ke tak.
annoying gile kot.

i don't know i'm waiting for who.
but it bothering me so damn much.

hahahahaha.

owh, aku ni gatal. maksud aku, aku ada elergi kepada seafood.
tapi aku tak suka mengaku.

sekrang aku cuma kata aku elergi pada dua benda sahaja.
ketam dan lala.
bile makan 2 nie aku tak dapat tipu dah =p

"Cough and Love can not be hidden what-so-ever"

Stay

sekarang aku mahu berbicara tentang hati dan perasaan.

poyo kan statement aku? =p

1. the crush has officially ended last Saturday. yes exactly on Saturday.

i don't know where the feeling flies. but it's definitely gone. i am glad that the feeling were not meant to stay :)

2. although the crush is over, i still writes about him

maybe the "crushing2'' has ended but my story still involving lots of people, he is not excluded.

3. i knew the crushing2 thing was gone when i talked to him yesterday without having the butterflies in my stomach. i don't feel like seeing him. i don't feel like searching for him anymore.

4. i have a good feeling about everything right now.

everything went well. my practical session, health, family, friends, money, basically everything.

5. Ramadhan is great! i tremendously love Ramadhan :)

it's not about feeling hungry and thirsty, it's about how Ramadhan has unite my family member every year. we will perform Magrhib, tarawikh, breaking fast, and sahur together. Thats mean a lot to me.

moreover, balik kerja pukul 4.30pm. i able to fetch Alya on time everyday. :)

6. i am insisting of buying new handphone for myself by October :)

i meant blackberry =p

Hitam itu Manis

kawan aku bising,
bila borak aku akan cerita pasal kerja.
teman lelaki dia pun cerita pasal kerja.
lama2 dia pun tahu pasal dunia Ukur Bahan ni.
hehehehe

seorang lagi kawan aku,
belajar biotechnology,
sekarang kerja sementara tolong abg dia.
pasal dunia construction.

so basically, 2 kawan yg aku suka sgt2 extra cheese suka punya,
telah involved secara tak langsung dalam dunia aku.

aku tak ramai kawan,
tapi Allah itu Maha Adil,

:)

Steamboat

"aku tak suka mempergunakan waktu ofis"
-P.H 2010

perkara baru akan jadi sejarah juga :)

being alive is wonderful.

i have a dream,
and i'm going to be a dream chaser.


all i need is the guts and the will power.

selamat tinggal perkara lagho

selamat pergi perasaan berkocak.

jumpa kalian lagi di masa2 tertentu :)

Inception

although i have a crush on him.

i never imagine my future life with him.

it's not that i don't want to think about it.
i just can't imagine.

because,somehow, somewhat.
i knew that he is not the one :)

great isn't it?
=)

full stop.

Purple with Grey Strip

i do really hope that i don't give my whole heart

to someone that cannot hold it tight.

who ever you are.

where ever you might be.

i'll wait.

We Must Be the Change We Wish to See

aku tengah kaya.

jadi aku sangat kedekut sekarang.

bukan kaya wang ringgit.
tapi kaya dengan kesenangan hati.

walaupun aku sedang kaya,
aku tak rasa aku nak tukar apa2 pun yang aku ada sekrang dengan benda lain.

jadi jelas la aku ni kedekut kan?

hehehehehehe

aku ada keluarga.

aku ada Hanan dan kawan2.

aku ada antidotes

aku ada suasana kerja yg membahagiakan

aku ada rumah yang 'warm'

aku rasa cukup.puas.

aku takkan cari yang lebih baik. sebab yang lebih baik akan tiba bila masanya.

Blub Blub Blub

dulu.

benda tu jadi
sekarang jadi lagi.

nasib baik dulu tak melibatkan perasaan yang dalam.
sekarang pun belum.

dulu dah jadi.
sekarang dah separuh jadi.

nak tak nak.
keadaan tetap sama.
cuma yang berubah,
tempat dan orang yang terlibat.

hahahaha.

lagipun, ini bukan pertandingan.
ini bukan perlumbaan
bukan juga pergaduhan.

jadi, aku bukan la mengalah kepada sesiapa.
cuma beringat lah sendiri kan.

realiti kehidupan.
adalah pilihan.
sama ada nak terima atau tidak.
take it or leave it.

adapt with the environment.and enjoy every beat of it.


"someone worth knowing will discover your true quality sooner or later"

i rather wait.

Husna, ok tak?

mcm mana orang boleh melafazkan cinta dengan sangat mudah dan sgt berani?

mcm mana orang boleh tahu,oh itu lah insan yang aku cinta?

mcm mana orang boleh terima cinta orang lain?

cinta itu realistik

atau

realistik itu cinta?

ah,perkara yang tak perlu di fikirkan.

tapi fikir juga.hahahaha

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i get myself confused again.hahahaha

knock it off.

ini bukan masanya.

aku bukan orangnya.

di sini bukan tempatnya.

mungkin memang aku ditakdirkan mempunyai fizikal begini

untuk menjaga diri dengan pengalaman orang lain. =)

nak kata aku pemerhati,semua orang pun juga.

nak aku pendengar,semua org pun dengar.

memang aku sedang mencari realiti hidup.

di mana keadaan dan situasi tidak bercanggah dengan kondisi hati dan jasad.

Double H

"Husna, bos nak amik kau kerja, as a temporary staff."

"sebelum kau sambung blajar balik,kau nak sambung blajar kan?" he added

tiba2 aku kaget.terkesima. bukan apa,aku memang nak sambung kerja kat situ,
sebab aku rasa 3bulan aku latihan industri tak cukup.
kerja pun seronok, org sekeliling pun best.
belajar pun banyak.

walau banyak aku belajar.
lebih banyak yg belum aku belum belajar :D

mula2 aku memang rasa confident nak utarakan hal ini ke bos.

tapi lately,aku dapat rasa kualiti aku kerja merosot.i mean,perasaan tu boleh rasa kan.
mungkin sebab sume kerja yg aku buat nak kejar dateline. so, fokus macam bersepah sikit.

so,aku pun mcm malu la nak ckp boleh tak aku sambung...
buat rugi syarikat je.

tapi sekarang aku fikir mcm nie :

1) kepercayaan dan keyakinan orang lain memang susah nak dpt.

2) i will take this as a big compliment for myself.

3) grab seberapa banyak mengikut kemampuan dan kapasiti.

surrender betul2 bukan dlm kamus.

"you have to make a lot of mistake to make things right."

aku akan terus bersemangat...

Durian,Kg Chennah

ok.

i was having so much fun!

it's like, dah lama gila kot tak rasa fun mcm sekrang.

but then,

tibe2 jadi mcm tak faham pula.
susah hati aku.
susah hati.

i thought i could get the time of my life by doing what i love to do as i like.

i didn't know it did break some hearts.

sometimes,i just need a time out.

that's all.

A.B.C

to whom it may concerned.

i love you.

i will never say that i love everything about you,
because i never did.

i love you,

just the way you are.

Guess I'm Falling For You

When I look into your eyes
I see sunshine
The clouds are blown away
I hope you're here to stay
'Cause you've got me needing more of you
Guess I'm falling for you

You walk away
My eyes caress you
Then you turn and smile
You've caught me thinkin' of love with you
Guess I'm falling, I may be falling for you

Since I met you days are brighter
Life's uneven loads are lighter
When I hear you whisper the words I long to hear dear
Now I look into your eyes
I'm lost in knowing that you are all I want
My need for you is growing
Guess I'm falling, I think I'm falling for you
Think about falling for me too

Seribu Sembilan Ratus Lapan Puluh Enam

perempuan,
memang tak sah kalau tak bergosip.

eleh.
lelaki pun.

hahahaha,
aku kenalah ber-ingat,
bila banyak cakap,
banyak la salah.

bila banyak cakap,
banyak lah yang kita cerita.
banyak la ketidak-sempurnaan dan kecacatan diri sendiri
yang di pertengahkan.

sebab,hakikatnya,
semua orang pun menilai.

kan?kan?

bukan semua cerita kita orang nak dgr,
sebab aku pun tak dengar semua benda.

sebab,
kepentingan seseorang adalah dlm suatu keadaan tertentu.
bukan dalam semua keadaan.

ingat tu.

Along

one minute you are up,

two minutes your are down.

held your head up high.

and don't ever be worried.

because i will always be two steps behind you.

if you stumbled, don't be ashamed to cry.

i'll be your shoulder.

Twenty Sixteen

The wires has been fixed.
oh yeah,oh yeah!

having a crush on someone and falling for someone are two different things kan?

Chy Penawar said, sama.

Stanum said, depends.- falling and crushing at the same time.*that make sense*

falling

crushing.

silly.


ok now i am complicate things. i can clearly see that.

i rather stumble and cry.

rather that being crushed and die. or falling and paralyze.

Neeko

short update.

today.
i was haunted by your face.
the calmest face i ever see for the past couple months.

everywhere i go,
everything i do.
i saw your face.

i was haunted.
that's creepy.
and nonsense.

mungkin ade wayar putus di mana2.
barangkali ya,
sebab aku belagak sangat kata dia tu lembik dan liat.

sila jangan tenung aku lagi.
bukan menakutkan
bimbang lebih banyak wayar putus.

hahahahaha.

ok,this short update is definitely stupid.

weeeeeeeeeeeee~

tomorrow i will fix the wires and box it up.

crush2 go away.

Budak Kamus

Bank Rakyat oh Bank Rakyat.

PNB oh PNB.

i have to measure floor finishes.elevated carpark. Glad, i have Amir as my team mate!
Amir! we are in this together.

easy huh?!

senang, tapi takut salah bahagikan bahagian.
submission date will be on Wednesday morning.

PNB, first draft lepas.
tapi ada addition itu dan ini.

Isnin meeting dgn the engineers.tak tau aku terlibat ke tak.
aku rasa aku kena join jugak sebab by end of the day PNB projek boleh kate baby angkat aku la kan.aku kena edit juga kan.nasib aku bukan buat seorang. thanks korang.

Rabu submit Bank Rakyat.
Rabu juga maybe ada kena pergi buat assesment balik kat PNB tu.

Sangat bersyukur sebab pengalaman yang aku dapat buat aku rasa puas untuk setakat ini.
banyak lagi perlu belajar.
banyak lagi.

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Surrender is definitely not an option! =)

hey,insan penenang hati.
terima kasih.
kau best.noktah.

Mentos

aku tengah enjoy.

aku cuba tidak lalai.
aku cuba tidak bongkak.
aku cuba mengawal emosi.

aku memang suka tengok dan perhati benda2 yang remeh2
kadang2 orang pun tak suka ingat.

aku suka ingat apa yang suka ingat.
secara tepat.

mungkin kalau aku suka seseorang atau sesuatu,
aku akan lebih berminat untuk tahu lebih.

tapi,tak semestinya aku tahu segalanya.

dan semestinya aku tak perlu tahu semuanya.
dan aku tidak mahu orang anggap aku tahu semua tentang sesuatu hal.

tentang org lain,sesuatu yang lain juga aku akan ambil tahu.
bukan hanya tertutup pada skop2 peribadi.


hidup adalah indah,tetapi tak semua yang indah itu hidup :)

Superseded

life so many friends we lost along the way.

it happened.

i used to make lots of friends and lost them

i know that their part has ended in my story.

at one time, i stopped making new friends.

until i realized that i was overprotecting my feelings.

i thought it was fragile.

my heart is tougher than i ever imagined it could be.

i let them in for better reasons.

somehow,

friends are one of the best antidotes.

ok.aku terasa poyo.

Sejak terpandang wajahmu
Hatiku bertanya selalu
Siapa dia mengikat pandanganku

Seringkali dia berlalu
Di hadapan dan menyapaku
Sehingga hatiku seringkali merindu
Tak dapat ku melupakan dirinya
Terbayang wajahmu di mataku

Ingin ku tanya namanya
Tapi hatiku rasa malu
Tak terucapkan walau sepatah kata
Mungkinkah diriku telah dilamun cinta
Oh… hatiku resah selalu

Haruskah aku menyatakan
Perasaanku kepadanya
Mungkinkah dia kini telah berpunya
Getar hati makin terasa
Bila terdengar suara dan bertentang mata
Ku bagaikan bebunga kehujanan
Berkembang mekar
Di setiap ketika

Tidur malamku tak lena
Asyik teringat padanya
Bilakah mentari memancarkan cahaya
Hanyalah dirinya bermain diingatan
Oh…tuhan ku rindu padanya

WPW -Waktu Punya Wajah

masa sudah suntuk.
malam penuh mimpi,
siang dipayung mentari.

masa makin suntuk,
ku perlu kejar bayangan,
jika ini memaksaku berlari,
aku akan berlari,mendaki dan sekali pun aku perlu merangkak,

aku akan lakukan.

Syukur, inspirasi masih disitu.

Brown Crocs made in China

what ever it is,
somehow,somewhat,
he amazed me.

for some other reason,
he is attractive.
hahahaha.
as simple as that.

im an idiot.

blub3,

ok,i still am such an idiot.
hahahaha

Pokok Puding

i've got more and more reasons to come out with something new.every day.

i will deliver at my very best.

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ini masuk cerita lain.
hehehe

aku PERNAH bosan bila orang cerita pasal orang lain kat aku,
contoh,pasal teman lelaki dia,admire die la,peminat die,die punye crush.
tapi aku ok je,aku dengar je.

tapi jgn risau.sekrang aku tak memilih.
aku suka mendengar. :)

aku nak complain pun buat ape.
best juga jadi tempat luahan.
at least ade org percaya kat kite ye dak?

tak rugi pun.bertambah best ade la.

sebab aku pun mcm tu jugak.
aku tak ramai kawan.
sebab tu,kawan2 yg sikit tu la kena dgr banyak benda.
bosan dah diorang.

semalam,aku dah kena sedebik.
ke-excited-an aku bercerita sebenarnya bukan untuk selalu.

aku pun pernah rasa apa yang kawan aku tu rasa kan
jadi,aku akan anggap ia normal.
:)

aku,kawan tak ramai,
so,mengalah tu kena la juga.
ego tak kemana pun.

kan?

Tangan aku bau kari,nak makan?

being annoyed is never too bad.

being annoying is definitely a silly thing to do

life is not all about yourself.

deal with it!

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KEMEJA COKLAT

Hari ini hari yang sgt hectic.
penat,stress dan happy juga.

sebab,aku masih berada di zon selamat,zon bebas kemalangan.

cuma,masuk hari ini, dah 5 hari papa tak call aku.
ye aku buat papa merajuk.

puncanya,aku tak sempat take-off roof papa,
sebab bz gile dgn measure roof trusses
pastu terus sambung kerja PNB bos.
salah sendiri la,sebab tak pandai manage masa.

tapi serius,aku dah kata aku tak janji buat,tak janji boleh siap,
sebab aku bz sgt2
sgt2

and last2 papa measure sendiri.

hmmmmmm.

i miss my papa.
papa mesti call aku hari2,
at least sekali.
mesti punya.

ni dah 5 hari.
5 effing days!

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ok,betul, aku addict dgn training session.
aku teruja dpt kawan baru.
aku seronok dgn environment.

aku pun rasa aku banyak habiskan masa aku di office.
memang patut mereka di rumah terasa hati.

sekarang papa dah merajuk sebab kerja aku.
aku dah hilang (hopefully sekejap je) satu tempat bercerita everything pasal practical.

ok, knock it off.
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my heart keep falling faster, why?

semua benda pun aku buat hari ini nak gelojoh2.

aku selalu meng-kategori-kan orang.
ok,sekarang aku tidak mahu buat mcm tu.

benda yang boleh elak,aku boleh elak.
seperti pelanggaran emosi antara teman2 baru.

aku dah di alam dewasa kan? :X

"bukan kau boleh telan apa saje ke?'' :D

BESUT

aku tulis lepas tu padam

ada la dlm 13 kali aku buat mcm tu.

aku nak update tapi,susah betul nak susun ayat ikut emosi.

ok,aku buat hidup aku bahagia dengan membuat perkara2 yg boleh membuatkan aku
rasa bahagia tu sendiri.

well,aku cuma gembira sebab faktor2 untuk bahagia menempuh hari2 yg mendatang
masih di situ.

masih di situ.

aku dah lama tak bekerja dalam satu kumpulan
aku pernah sangat benci untuk buat grouping work.

sebab aku selalu di takdirkan dpt ahli2 yg loser,malas dan tak mahu menyumbangkan
idea2 yang best.

sebab itu aku rindu zaman sekolah

dan bila aku dlm group seperti golongan tersebut.
aku selalu kena jadi leader,ketua.

pastu aku end up buat semua benda.

sampai aku dah tak hargai kerja berkumpulan.
sampai aku dah tak bersemangat.

tapi,hari ini aku tahu.
aku berada dalam satu kumpulan yg aktif dan produktif.
aku tak mahu de-motivated lagi.

cuma aku memang cuak bila orang atas lantik aku jadi group leader,
sebab aku tak hebat pun.
aku ni poyo je lebih.

En.S.A.M kata tadi :kau ketua tak guna:

hahaha memang pun.
tak makan dlm sebab betul la tu.

tapi aku nak jadi yg lebih baik.
aku akan cuba lagi.

eh tak,bukan aku akan cuba.

AKU AKAN JADI LEBIH BAIK! =)

p/s: i love his smile.

ye Husna...kenapa? :)

hari nie.

satu hari aku duk pulun siapkan re-measurement untuk roof trusses.

ada 10 jenis trusses, aku larat siapkan 9. gila.lagi satu je kot.

but takmo la duduk office sorg2 kan.

sebbaik encik bg pinjam kunci office :)

balik2 papa mintak tolong take off roof.

fuh~ memang terbaik la kan hari nie.

=p

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today i did realised something important.

there are things better left unsaid.

people might get hurt or i might get myself hurt :0

back to square one.i dont have any right to judge people the way i want to. :D

..............................

i have to organise my mental attitude.

aku salah tulis ke? hahahaha

damn it.
i never knew he was born on the same date.

coincident happened right?

he was born on JUNE 13th!

Ferrero Rocher

ok.
enough is enough.
im gonna work for the rest of my life after this.

so, i have to slow down a little bit.
i love to be where i supposed to be.
i love to do what i love to do.

i love my daily routine right now.

ok,tipu la if aku kata kerja itu tidak stress.

aku pernah stress,bila benda mudah pun aku tak faham.
aku tak boleh organized simple things.

itu sangat stress.

tapi,berguru dengan banyak orang.
itu satu peluang.
banyak pandangan.

it's a relief.

for years i've been motivating my ownself.
i've been trying to conquer all the feelings and develop it into positive thought.

although most of the time i do fail,
it won't make me a failure.
because i know that at least i've tried.

every tough things is a challenge.
take it or leave it.

i'm not a super women,
i know my limit.

i'll give the best i can offer.
i know i can do it!

impossible is nothing! :)

Maritim

i know i can learn more.

i knew that i can give more.

i want to be taught and able to share it with lots other people.

i need to be better that what i am right now.

i am inspired and hoping it will stay longer that i can ever imagine.

no pain no gain.

:)

Precast Slab.

yesterday, i noticed that his nails need to be cut.

today he cut all his extra unwanted nails.
and he had a little cut on his right thumb.

en afif came.
he talked to him,
so delicate.

i admired the way he talk to people.

Voices

i could not find a perfect word to describe what am i feeling right now.

i....

i......

i.........

just don't know.

i don't need help, because i will overcome this feeling all by myself.

in my own way. :)

June

hahahaha,

aku memang tak suka post gambar orang sebenarnye.

tapi muka 2 orang nie mcm sama je.

sorg kat rumah sorang lagi kat office.

ade persamaan kan?

patut la.

ok he will be my big brother at the office. hahaha

Sunday, 27th June 2010

he is a degree holder.

he loves dun-hill

i love dan hill.

he is my best weekend tutor.a good one.

he is not perfect but he always give his very best.

even most of them did the same thing too.

being a qs same as being a decision maker.

whether it is wrong or it is right.

there's no maybe.

koko cokolat celup

day 14

aku kena tulis juga everyday,nanti aku lupa nak buat report

muahahahaha

hari ni sambung buat kerja koko.
taking off:
door
window
wall
roof sikit pastu zurena amek alih.

meeting dengan bos,next week ade site visit wuhooooooo *excited*
nak tgk progress work untuk projek tergendala. :)

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hari ni tak tau kenapa penat sangat.

oh mungkin sebab,balik kerja pastu rasa penat,
pastu tidur,tapi dlm tidur tu mimpi sedang bekerja.

so penat berganda la.
ingat mcD je ke ada kenikmatan berganda.
hahaha

ok dah.kena buat report. :)

SKSB

day 13

sabtu ahad buat ot.

measure ceiling finishes and roof

sekali tak tally pulak dengan floor finishes.

today, me and mira managed to finalized the works.

siap,print dan hantar.

owh yesterday,our lunch was his treats.

he was a very gentle young man.
although he is a heavy smoker,he did not smoke while with us.

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i love being pre-qs.

i want to be a qs.

the more i learn the more i love,
the more my heart can't get enough.

plup plup

sumarry untuk 2minggu.

day 1 : typing,photostat,
day 2 : photostat,briefing2
day 3 :take-off door,window(Mr J),column(Mr M)
day 4 : column (con't),furniture,sanitary fittings,sundries (Mr J)
day 5 : septic tank (Mr H)

day 6 :sirim,arithmetical error.tender evaluation process (Mr M)
day 7 :sirim (cont')
day 8 :sirim (cont'),
day 9 :wall,(Mr A),
day 10 :ceiling finishes(Mr H <3), wall (Mr A)

SKSB,PPR,KOKO

short update.day 9

aku dah jumpa satu benda yang membuatkan aku nak masuk pejabat hari2.

hahahaha bongok aku ni.

biar lah kan?suka hati aku la.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

aku tak tau nak buat mcm mane kau bercakap ngan aku.

*tipu la kalau aku kata aku tak cuba kan*

mahahahahaha.

aku stalker.kau tak curiga ke?

tiba2 aku boleh tau tahun bila kau lahir. hahahaha.

obvious betul aku ni stalking kau.silly me!

...........................

tapi hari ini aku sangat berpuas hati sebab walaupun aku dpt ckp dan berbincang dgn kau pukul 11.15PM.
aku sangat suke! like seriously suka!

:)

walau apa2 pun, kau takkan membuatkan aku lupa kenapa aku berada di sana.

ilmu dan pengalaman adalah keutamaan.

dtg dari siapa? aku tak kisah.

cuma tak salah kan aku membuatkan kau jadi faktor?

hahahaha.

Day 5

aku rasa kau comel.
sebab mungkin kau rendang je.

aku rasa kau smart
sebab mungkin kau kemas(memang pun!)


aku suka bila kau suruh aku buat kerja.
hahaha.
sebab kau comel.

kau tahu tak aku adalah seorang stalker yg agak hebat?
sebab dlm masa beberapa minit aku dah jumpa profile kau tanpa tahu nama penuh kau
atau apa2 maklumat tentang kau?
kecuali nama pendek kau.
hahahaha

tapi ada satu benda yang buat aku tak senang sampai sekarang
sebab aku tak siapkan kerja kau sebab aku sangat bodoh tentang kerja2 struktur,
walau pun aku dapat A tapi aku sangat tak tahu.
aku tak senang hati sebab kau tanya aku tadi.

"ke ni taktik kau buat kerja lambat?"
nasib baik kau sambung, pastikan siap ye isnin!

fuh~

hari ini aku rasa aku sangat bongok.
memang sesuai.

ok,im an idiot.i admit that!

BLub BluB

Day 2.

Tuesday, 8th June 2010

the first 50minutes,i did nothing,no task given.

around 9.30am Azri gathered us 4,Shifa,Nasri n Zurina in the meeting room.
he briefly explain how to measure the drawing by elements and checked on the progress on Shifa,Nasri and Zurina's works.

i feel like i'm a second semester student all over again.its a WOW if my measurement lecturers have the piece of Azri ideas how to explain!

i still dont get any big task yet.Shifa said,wait until the tide bush on you soon. hehehe
around 11.30am i helped Nasri to photocopy 2 sets of contract documents. it was fun. hahaha,i solute the photocopy machine's inventor! the machine is awesome! i was amused how the machine can work that fast! hahahaha silly me.

i punched the paper using a huge puncher and bind it into one file.

1.00pm, it's lunch time. i went for my lunch with officemates! Shifa and Zurina at Bamboo's Restaurant. i dont know why im starving so quickly since i started working. *sigh* i ate a plate of rice, paru sambal and lemak pucuk manis and a little bit of sambal belacan. the food was nice and i think its cheap. rm4.20 including the lime juice as well.

back to office,perform Zohor prayer,back to my table.

after lunch hour,i spent 3hours by doing nothing,Hanafi said,keep yourself look like a busy person,dont look around.hahaha ok2, i listen to a great music and browsing the net.

4.55pm, Azri ask me to excel and print the drawing numbers for Bank Rakyat's project.

5.30pm - done pack my things and heading home. :)

Malu bertanya sesat jalan. :)

Day 1

Monday, 7th June 2010

i have currently started my internship program. I will be ongoing this industrial training
program for a complete 3 month,starting 7th June 2010 till 7th Sept 2010.This
program is a compulsory for making eligible to achieve my diploma in quantity
surveying.

it's a small QS firm named Pakatan Ukur Bahan located at Section 9, Bandar Baru Bangi.
It took around 10 minutes to get myself there everyday.
My working hour starting at 8.30 am and end at 5.30pm.Monday to Friday.

ok stop.that's boring.

10 Things on the first day at work :)

1)First impression.

wow,its actually a real office.hahaha excuse me.although i have to climb up the stairs to the third level i dont care.i love it.
when i was little,i always dream of working at the office.hahahaha pathetic me.

2)The Office.

i have my own table.with a computer on it.
i dont really explore the office yet. i know there is surau and toilet for women at the back of the office.

3)First task

its funny,my first task was transferring the chair into the meeting room,naaaa, i dont want to consider that as my first task. my real first task would be from Hanafi, he ask me to punch the JKR Standard Form.i used to punched paper,but this is different! im using a huge puncher!like seriously huge. hahahaha then Kak Liza ask me to retype the part of BQ. in the meantime Hanafi ask me to retype one page of Contract.it reminds me of studying contract law.

4)Lunch hour

i was mingled around whether to have my lunch at home or stay at the office and have my lunch at the nearest restaurant.Shifa went back because she's not feeling very well.
then i decided to head home.while on the way,Hananah called and offer to have lunch at her places.
i had labu gulai lemak,fried kembung,sambal belacan,terung goreng and salted egg on my first day! :)

5)Officemates

on my first day i dont easily attached with the officemate.

6)Kamus Universiti

After lunch hour,half of the office went blackout.so i had to use others table to continue my work. when i finished my work, i browse the desktop and i found Kamus Universiti.it was fun! its translating English words into English and Malay.and there is parrot pronouncing it.it was funny and cool at the same time! :P

7)Punch card

OMG, i finally have my own punch card with my name on it! hahahaha

8)Microsoft Office

ok,this is serious,Microsoft words and excel are the most important things! im glade that i able to type quite fast and know the at least the basic function of these two things! fuh~

9)Photostat Machine

the machine was differrent than what i used to handled back then in koperasi smkj3! :)
but its still a photocopy machine right?

10)Working hours

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, i dont know that i can go back home at 5.30pm! everybody else does not seems to give signed of leaving. around 6.25pm Nasri ask me, "kau tak nak balik lagi ke?" i was like, err, "boleh balik dah eh?" then he replied "you can go back as soon as 5.30pm if you finished your work"

then i was like HAHAHAHAHAHA-ing for the rest of the day!

the moral.malu bertanye sesat jalan! :P

SLAVISH

i saw a girl,

she wears soft pink skirt,

heart colour ribbon on her head,

she is smiling.

i saw a girl.

she drew a circle,

huge.

the floor covered with an anti-slip mat,

so that no one get hurt or badly injured.

she put multicoloured flowers,

she spilled soft colour everywhere.

she plant a shady trees,

it gave her shelter,

she suddenly felt asleep.

i saw a girl,

woke up,

her face showed pleasure mingled with sadness.

the trees fruiting well,

she forgot to water the flowers.

she forgot to bring the water into the cirlce.

i saw a girl

she put the fruits in her pocket.

i saw that girl,

walking out from the circle that she made herself

she need to create more circles

to share the fruits

but still she have to make sure her flowers are not withered

she need to create more circles

..and she plan to put some bright colours to it.new one. :)

nightingale

dimmer light,

sleepy might,

your love inside,

I'll hold it tight.

won't let go,

won't let it slide.

dimmer light,

in the darkest night.

husna

pink box

uganda!

sorry la.
aku tau kau bz.
tapi aku nie memang ngade,suke buat ayat touching2 n buat kau rase bersalah

aku tak suke kau ckp sorry2 tau.sebab bukan kau buat salah pun.

cume sebenarnye aku nak borak ngan kau,

tapi aku nak rase kau cri aku dulu.

aku try tahan tak cari kau.
tapi mcm tak leh je


aku ade pakwe baru pun kau tak tau kan?

aku harap kau bace status2 aku untuk update hidup aku skrg ok.

aku tak kisah pun sebenarnye,tapi kadang2 respond la sikit2 ape2 yg aku post kat wall kau.

sebab bile aku post something kat wall kau tu,bile aku rase aku perlukan kau.

remeh je bende nie,
remeh je ape yg aku post.
tah pape je pun,tak penting pun ape yg aku post tu.

bile kau free,

kau cri la aku,
seminit dua pun jadi la.

ok la,aku suke buat ayat pathetic.

tapi,dgn kau,
aku slalu nak kau tau ape yg aku rase.

urghhh

perasaan aku sekarang :

1) aku tak nak masak

2)pegi mana2 tak yah ajak org.

3)buat ape2 tak yah pikir org lain

4)tak nak plan ape2,bukan jadi pun.

5)tak nak jaga perasaan org lain.what ever!

6)tak nak jaga ape2 perhubungan.kau nak ckp ngan aku tegur la.tak nak? suka hati la. perlu aku cari la.

damn it!

ini perasaan masa,saat,ketika ini,

kejap2 lagi or esok or luse berubah la.

people change kan?

Encik2

En Google
En Legria

Thank you for making my day so wonderful! :)

New Things

1) jalan baru

Hari ni aku explore satu jalan kampung yang sebelum ni aku takde guts pun nak lalu. aku try lalu jalan ke sepang ikut jalan dlm, and aku dah figure out mcm mana nak ke airport without bayar tol. hahaha

2) pakwe baru


i bought myself a new flash memory camcoder. RED Legria FS306. hahaha after this aku akan post satu entry pasal pakwe baru nie!

*excited kot!*

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

saja nak buat short update tengah2 malam nie :P

bye!

Being in Love is General

10 more new things.

1)Diploma in Quantity Surveying

Basically, dan secara teori aku dah complete the course! gile la, 3 tahun tu. dlm 3 tahun tu aku paling enjoy semester second last and last.Sebab nye, aku ade classmate yang boleh la.hahaha,

aku berjaya habiskan perjuangan kat dunia kolej.


2) Classmate

aku tak rasa aku boleh dapat classmates mcm time sekolah dulu, bersemangat dan berdedikasi, to survive in college world, aku kena jadi powerpuff girl sendiri. eh ppg pun ade team,aku takde, so kene jdi super hero sendiri.

ape2 pun dunia kolej aku,classmate lelaki yang lebih fun, kurang serabut, and cool. aku tak appreciate pun classmate perempuan,owh kecuali mereka yang kelas ngan aku dlm kelas puan suhana n madam yati.

3)Industrial Training

aku akan start buat IT jun depan. sekarang aku tak tau masa IT tu kene buat ape. hahaha,agak2 mesti asyik kene marah ngan bos sebab bodoh tak reti buat keje.

4)formspring,facebook,twitter,blogspot

hahaha,aku mcm suke gile bende2 nie,lawak betul la. sebab aku rase separuh dri hari aku kat depan laptop. tak la tipu gile, tapi aku boleh confirm aku lepak dpn laptop not less than 4hours a day.

Facebook,aku rasa aku jumpa banyak kawan2 lama yang memang tak jumpe 10-12 thn pun jumpe gak. tapi kepada strangers maaf la aku memang tak approved korang. aku bukan friend collector.

Formspring, hahaha abende nie sengal gak, tapi setakat nie tak de pun org tanye bukan2 kat aku, ape2 pun, people jgn segan2 nak tanye ok.

5) Bercinta,Perkahwinan dan anak

aku tak tau pasal ape perasaan untuk berkahwin tu membuak2 skrg.hahaha
aku tak mahu couple,*ceh tak couple boleh la kate mcm nie*
ye la, bile fikir2 balik,
couple ni istilah bodoh je,sebab die tak menghalalkan ape2 pun.
tapi dont get me wrong,aku tak la anti org bercouple,aku suke je tgk gelagat org bercinta nie.aku amek la sini sikit,sana sikit pengalaman dorg. ini pun byk membantu aku kenal org ramai.gelagat.kih3

ade yg bercinta tapi tak mengaku, sebab dorg tak declare dorg tu couple. come on. obvious kot.ini general.ramai org mcm nie.

ade yg couple putus couple putus.time bercinta bagai nak rak. janji ini janji itu. pastu clash,dapat pengganti tu senang gile.hahahaha no komen la.

ye la, mungkin org boleh kate ayat2 aku nie berbaur cemburu sebab aku tak de org yg nak kan. peduli ape aku.

aku inginkan keluarga sendiri. ye ye aku tengah sabar la nie.
se-desperate mane pun aku, tak lah aku pegi gatal2 pun. Alhamdulillah, aku dah tahu kenapa aku gemuk dan tak attractive. hahaha. takde la ramai lelaki nak tackle aku.

aku impikan perkahwinan berdasar kan asas yang betul dan diredhai.

isu buang anak nie,bunuh anak, aku rasa org2 nie kejam gila kot.
tapi maybe dorg2 ni ade mental illness, sape tahu. tapi,ish moga2 aku di kuatkan iman.

6)Hidup ini umpama roda.

betul2 clishe ayat nie kan, tapi memang betul pun.
jgn la selalu underestimate org sgt, mcm la kau nie hebat sgt.
last2 kene batang hidung sendiri baru tahu.

*aku pun sama la.*

sekali pun kau betul jgn la bulat2 kate org lain salah.
jgn pertikaikan ape yang org lain fikir tentang org lain sebab kau bukan org lain.
kau jgn rasa kau kenal org lain tu sepenuhnya.
people change.

7)Keluarga

Restu ibu ayah,sgt penting. aku bersyukur sebab aku sedar awal. aku sedar. aku percaya. sekarang ni ape pun yg aku buat,mesti rase nak kasi tahu parents. kalau dulu,balik rumah pun aku tak suka. suka buat aktiviti tanpa pengetahuan mereka.

kemana aku pergi,dengan siapa aku berkawan, parents aku tahu. aku sangat bersyukur sebab aku sedar awal.sebab apa masalah pun, hanya keluarga yang akan terima kita balik.

abang aku dah kerja.hahaha every month aku dapat rm50, wuhooo banyak tu.
ingat org suka2 je ke nak bagi duit mcm tu. bagus la,abg aku tu nampaknya ade future. ade makwe,ade impian,kumpul duit.

sebab rm50 tu,aku rasa abg aku tu jadi contoh, nanti aku kerja pun aku dapat rase aku pun akan bagi kat adik2 aku.

8)Penang

aku akan ke penang hujung bulan ni, ini adalah trip pertama aku pergi mengembara *ceh mengembara la sgt* dengan restu ibu bapa, travel sendiri, manage duit sendiri masa trip tu, pergi dgn kawan2 stay kat sana 3 hari.

9) Video Recorder/ Camera

semalam aku tanya papa.aku nak buat loan with zero interest kat papa boleh tak. nak beli video camera. hahahaha

aku rase mcm aku dapat je.tapi tengok la mcm mane.

aku rase nak beli dslr, tapi kalau gune duit sendiri lagi best,so dslr kene tunggu.

10)Muhasabah diri.

aku sangat perlu untuk muhasabah diri.
aku lalai. aku sering alpa.
suka pada dunia sampai akhirat di abaikan.

aku tak mahu terus hanyut dalam dunia yang sementara.
dunia aku mahu,akhirat aku damba.

Ya Allah redhailah perjalanan hamba-Mu ini. amin.

Nice thought are meant for sharing.

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63# Make all your friends feel that there is something special in them
64# Always aim higher than you belive you can reach!
65# Never judge a day by it's weather :)
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89# Try to mend some broken hearts by lending an ear to a friend. :)
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95# Learn to like people, especially those different from yourself. :)
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