it was super fun. :)
but the thing is.
why on earth i can't talk straight to the eyes!
what i meant was.
i can't really describe the feeling.
butterflies in the stomach, way tooooo much, no la,next!
falling? definite NO. i guarantee.
as far as i am concerned...
the crushing2 things were gone.
but it seems like,
there are three possibilities:
1) the crushing2 did not leave,never did.
2)the feeling was gone,but it pass by seasonally
3)whether i didn't let go the feeling, or i just simply don't want it to go.
my heartbeat does not beat any faster than normal.
i don't have the butterflies in my stomach
i still eat, mandi and tidur.
so,the feeling does not effect much right?
so why bother? =p
but, what ever it is.
i am glad that i managed to control the feeling and focusing on my aim to work hard and work smart.
i able to face the feeling unconditionally and without hesitation.
and i love myself because i don't act normal. i am being normal.