Officially Signed Out from Pakatan

Dear Mr S.A.M,

i know i would cry if,

i give you my speech for our last meeting at the office.

but i do cry while writing this down.

you are the one who should i called my brother.

you have been my brother more than a brother should be.

yes,we did not have any blood relation in anyhow.

but you the one who made me smile and laugh the MOST.

and u made me cry also.

actually,there's no beyond word to describe how thankful am i to you.

thank you for the yell,

for the tears,

for the laughter,

the joy.

and all the ilmu you gave me.

dari banyak2 benda yang tak senonoh,kurang senonoh dan tak senonoh langsung,

lagi banyak benda yang senonoh saya akan ingat. thank you.

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and to you mr p.h,

you have been in every chapter of my book since i started being there.

the book has just completed yesterday,

and i will always look up to read every chapter over and over again,

just because you are in it. hik hik hik.

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kakak cantik,

saya nak beli lotion kat cosway tu :P

i did cry to sleep yesterday, but luckily i have a bear to comfort me. :)

.............

to the rest of my antidotes,

thank you.

for giving me the taste of happiness while i was there.

The butterflies fly.

i'm finally going to end doing something that i love to do

for

something that i think i might love.

the time is coming faster than i ever thought.

and at some point, i don't expect the times flies any faster than now.

Time, slow down.

.............

but i know,

the perfect emotion will slowly comes as the time pass by.

i stayed for a while and it's time for me to fly.

.................

and it's hard to say goodbye,

but it must happen.

thank you for all the memories.

i love you guy to bits and pieces.

you guys have been my antidotes for the past 7months.

Setiu

I don't wanna fall out
But we're all out of time
Is this over?
Don't want an ending
In one day
No way you'll be mine.

My heart is running on empty
One more day and then we go
Yeah, the time goes on now
Don't ask me how
I don't know
You'll be home tomorrow
About a thousand miles too far away?
Say you won't forget and i'll be okay

At least tonight
It's just you and me and honestly
That's everything i need

Tonight's the countdown
'Till the day we're not around
Is this over?
Don't want an ending
And you're gone
And we're on with our lives
I don't want an ending

Don't want an ending...

The days turn to hours
And it’s just a moment before they go
I’m scared to say goodbye,
‘Cause what’s after that?
I don’t know.

As the years look past us
If we lose tracks,
Or lose the fight,

I will search forever
To find a way back..

We said "see ya later"
But I know there's no way we're
Around here again
And every until next time

Feels like one bad punch line
And I don't want that again

UiTM Shah Alam

i was so productive today!

hahahaha.

i attend meeting which wasn't my project.

i had to.they given me no choice.

cool ape, trainee Noh teman,

ingat boleh hilang rasa cuak, skali meeting tu last for about 5minutes je! cit cit!

then we decided to have early lunch.

we had lunch at Jalan Semarak. cool,

he have big appetite juga la!

badan je kecik.

......................

then,

azri called suruh cari quatation untuk built-in furniture, landscaping works n signage

blur kejap...

then, aku kena ganti org JB lagi untuk pergi KPM.

it was their fault and mistakes here and there, and i had to take all the blames

never mind, it was nothing. owh it was something.

i gain experience and i met new kind of peoples.

............................

on my way back to the office,

the rain falls heavily.

and there were not even one umbrella in the car.

redah aje la. :p

oh,i was wearing white baju kurung.hahaha

......................

boss was there when i reached the office.

i miss him! and he smile a lot! =)

..........................

then,

sambung cari quotation.

then help the new tough guy kira GFA :P

then tolong zue,

and i am hungry.

i drove back and hoping there's dinner left for me.

it was such a dissapointment. hehehehehe

i should have my dinner before heading home tadi.

...............

there's to much 'then' kan?

tinggal 7 hari lagi.

hmmm :(

Foursquare

finally watched Rapunzel.

it was AWESOME!

i'm in love with Zachery Levi! :)

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last week, i heard him singing,

Malay songs.

i hate to admit this, but

i do miss those people and those faces....

and some other faces too.

very much.

and i am ready to walk on a different lane.

because somehow, like i already knew,

that, we eventually will end up at the same road.

Arsenal One-Nil

aku tak rasa aku akan menangis di hari terakhir nanti.

sebab, aku hampir yakin tiada siapa boleh buat aku nangis on that day itself. :)

sebab aku memang tak pernah dpt surprise yang surprise gile,

di hari jadi ke,hari2 penting yang lain ke..

cume hari konvo hari tu terharu juga bila ade juga kawan bagi bunga dan cupcakes.

tapi tak terkejut pun sebab dorang memang comel.

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kerja = penat, banyak dan leceh.

tapi orang di sekeliling yang merubahkan menjadi

kerja = seronok,indah, melegakan, sesak dan mematangkan.

ya, orang2 di sekeliling.

keadaan menjadi hangat dan selesa.

menangis, ketawa, tersenyum, tertekan. semua dalam satu dan sebab yang sama.

........

without them, things will be a lot different.

so, i actually love the environment more than the work itself. =)

i just realized that fact. i mean betul2 realized.

:) :)

Mayor

tak rasa ingin memilki,

tapi masih rasa mahu melalui hari-hari itu dengan indah.

ya hari-hari yang indah.

orang selalu mempertikaikan kenapa aku suka hari isnin.

sebab ramai suka hari jumaat.

as for me,

i really love monday because....

i have 5 more days to enjoy every moment of the week.

i hope Monday will always make me feels like i am worth living.

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mimpi hanya mimpi,

tapi tak salahkan kalau aku terus melayari mimpi itu ketika tidur?

dah hadapi realiti tika jaga?

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sekali lagi,aku tiada banyak rahsia,

aku takkan private-kan ruang ini,

ini ruang kecil, tulisan kosong, tapi penuh makna.

aku tidak kisah siapa yang baca,

sebab hanya orang yang cari ,akan jumpa.

aku tak rasa people will search for me,

samada they accidentally bumped into my blog,

or they linked to my blog,

or they are my close friends

these are the people that have my thought and proven that i am not alone.

tony roma's

it's been the best 7 months ever!

i am looking forward to new things,

me excited!

hey cik anggun, yes i do love you too...

thank you for being there and still being there.

............................................

i am ready to be a typical student again.

weeehooooooo....

i am blessed. Alhamdulillah.

........................

it's been 7 wonderful, awesome months.

i am fat,

but people still loves me.

i am silly,

but people still like me.

i am useless sometimes,

but people still do believe in what i am capable of.

i am blessed. Alhamdulillah.

i am not good in most of things,

but i do hope that at least i do left some good thought in every person that ever made me smile.

it's been marvelous 7 months.

thank you.

Imation 16GB

Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa anda ditawarkan tempat untuk mengikuti program di UiTM:
Program: (AP224) Sepenuh Masa SARJANA MUDA UKUR BAHAN (KEPUJIAN) FAKULTI SENIBINA PERANCANGAN DAN UKUR
Kampus: B - UiTM Shah Alam Semester: DISEMBER 2010
Sila datang mendaftar di tempat yang ditetapkan.
Tempat: BAHAGIAN PENGAMBILAN PELAJAR, BANGUNAN UiTM INTERNATIONAL CENTRE (UIC), UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MARA, 40450 SHAH ALAM, SELANGOR DARUL EHSAN
Tarikh: 2/1/2011 Masa: 9:00AM - 12:30PM
Kemudahan dan Bayaran
Yuran pengajian satu semester: SILA RUJUK BIL BAYARAN
Kemudahan kolej kediaman : TIDAK DISEDIAKAN. SILA URUSKAN SENDIRI
PENTING
1. Program dan kampus yang ditawarkan adalah MUKTAMAD. Sebarang permohonan pertukaran tidak akan dilayan. 2. Anda dikehendaki mematuhi syarat-syarat tawaran seperti berikut. 3. Sila bawa sijil-sijil asal dan salinan SEMASA MENDAFTAR. 4. Anda dikehendaki membuat pengesahan penerimaan / penolakan tawaran dengan segera dalam tempoh yang ditetapkan melalui laman web di http://istudent.uitm.edu.my/intake . 5. Calon hanya diterima sebagai pelajar UiTM setelah datang mendaftar, membayar yuran pengajian serta memenuhi syarat kemasukan yang ditetapkan oleh UiTM.
NOTA
1. Pelajar dimestikan lulus MUET dalam tempoh setahun.
KETUA BAHAGIAN PENGAMBILAN PELAJAR

Radio Active

things will never be the same again,

without you,you,you and you.

i will experiencing a new kind of friends, new environment.

but that does not mean our relationship will ended as soon as you leave.

as long as we stay connected in anyway,in every possible ways, the ukhuwah will always be in our hearts.

no matter what..

i can't believe i would ever say this again.

i already started to miss you guys...

...........................

hey, i am a stalker, yes i admit it,

and somehow, i feel like u knew it.

what ever i do, i hope u will be okay with it,

because i am not so into you. i do not owned you and i don't think

there will be 'us' or 'we' in so what ever. i will never act or say beyond the limitation. don't ever worry,

you just another person that i randomly like. :)

and i will never fall for you.

...................................................

and as for you cik anggun,

kesalahan terbesar awak ialah tidur dlm kereta ketika saya memandu.

itu sahaja.

yang lain bukan salah sesiapa, sebab kita berada di dlm satu keadaan pada emosi & masa yang salah...

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yes,i did cry, but im not surprised.

Keputusan Permohonan

Harap Maaf,
Permohonan anda ke Universiti Teknologi MARA adalah tidak berjaya.



Calon yang tidak berjaya , boleh membuat permohonan e-rayuan dengan
Klik di sini.

Keputusan adalah muktamad !

PPR Taiping

lahir di hospital swasta,

tadika swasta

sekolah agama swasta.

kolej swasta.

latihan industri swasta,

kerja pertama swasta.

.............................................

sebab,

mula2 pilihan.

pilihan.

sebab seterusnya,

tiada pilihan.

sebab tak dapat masuk ke saluran tajaan kerajaan.

........................

mama papa kata aku anak swasta,

semua pun mahal. beranak mahal, sampai besar pun mahal. hehehe.

sebenarnya,aku tengah nervous tunggu result application untuk disember intake UiTM.

aku ada rasa yang aku tak dapat. asal tah aku pun tak tahu.

tapi i do really hope my instinct were wrong.

aku ada plan untuk kehidupan aku seterusnya kalau aku dapat uitm tu.

but if aku tak dapat, aku tak fikir lagi.

kena fikir ke?

Pending Approval

selama ini aku hanya membantu.

dia suruh buat ini,aku buat.

dia suruh buat itu, aku buat.

secara keseluruhannya, aku tak tahu proses penyiapan kerja secara teliti.

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kali ini, besar galasan yang di berikan.

tapi, akhirnya i feel it's a blessing.

dgn ketiadaan en.s.a.m dan c.h

aku belajar selesai kan itu dan ini.

aku selekeh,kelam kabut dan poyo,tapi aku siapkan.

aku salah, betulkan, salah, kene debik, penat, faham dan faham.

aku gembira mereka bercuti,sebab i gained lots of things.

optimist person always sees opportunities between the problems.

thank you antidotes. you guys rocks!

Associate

semalam,

memang aku bekerja dgn insan tergarang di ofis.

tapi aku rasa dia best,dan sememangnya best!

1. "kalau kau tak tau,ckp je,aku tak pukul kau pun,aku tak usik kau punye,ok?"

2. "kau ni,meh sini,aku taknak kau salah lagi"

3. "kau dengar je ckp aku,aku mane penah salah..hehehe,kau ikut ck aku mesti betuul punye"

4. "betul keputusan aku amek kau jadi staff"

5. "asal hp kau kecik? beli la besar sikit,iphone 4 ke ape ke,kau kan org2 gadget" *huh?*

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aku tak penah kene tengking dgn dia.

aku tak pernah rasa tak best bila kerja dgn die

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aku bukan yg terbaik,

tapi mungkin aku suka yang terbaik dan terbias dgn sifat terbaik.

tapi sifat2 tu tak terserap lagi dlm aku. *sigh*

terlalu banyak lagi perkara aku harus belajar.

aku sedang belajar.

dan aku gembira.

he is not the only reason.

instead of black, i go for white.

instead of slide T, i still choose bulky B.

instead of next two months, i insisted this month.

i have waited for almost a year.

and i don't want to wait any longer than this..

i am stubborn,

and may be silly at the same time.

but i know what i want,

it is good enough.

for me.

E.L

There's so much craziness,

there's too much.

i don't know what kind of feeling i have towards certain peoples.

the feeling i could not explain by words.

weird, isn't it?

i am blessed.

let the feeling stay a little longer.please.... :)

bee tea Ho

Monday is usually a great day.

i always love my Mondays.

but today,it started as a 'just-another-fine' day.

i feel like running away.

merungut.lapar.malas.blurr. *screeeeaaaammmmm*

but it turn out to be a great day after all.

i laughed, i smiled and i think i over-joyed myself at the end of the day.

i am blessed!

i admit that sometimes, the simplest thing would definitely made a huge different.

too much is as bad as too little.

fullstop.

Torch sangat menggoda

satu :

Boy : what are doing?

Girl : looking at the stars.

Boy : same here,i am looking at the three in a row stars.

Girl : we are staring at the same stars. :)

dua :

Boy : saya syg awk lebih dari awak sayang saya.percaya tak?

Girl : haha,boleh ukur ke?mane tau?

Boy : cuba depa-kan tangan. see,tangan saya lagi panjang. i'll always be your extra hand. (sambil buat gaya titanic..hehehe)

tiga :

Boy : kawan rapat,macam saya dan awak.

Girl : kita rapat ye :)

empat :

Guy : kau ni manja sgt la.

Girl : mana ada. :)

Guy : sentimental

Girl : Perhaps

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Quantity Surveyor

entry sebelum ini sangat melucukan bila di baca semula.

i'm such a baby kan?

complaining this, complaining that.

yeah,life is not easy, so?

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lagu raya pasang waktu raya aidiladha?

come on people!

cukup la,dah la pasang time puasa,time raya. aidiladha pun nak pasang juge!

dengar takbir banyak2 kali juga yang seronok :)

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tak sangka pulak mama galakkan aku mencari sang kekasih.

hahahaha.....

mencari pastu jumpa tapi tak dapat.

samalah macam tak mencari kan?

why bother?

what will be will be.

........................................

lagi pun, i am surrounded with single ladies anyway.*tak semua la :P*

oh i forgot to mention, i am a fat lady. hehehehe

and unattractive. :)

but i do love myself.

i still believe that almost impossible, a man will actually fall for me for who i am and by the way i look. hahahaha

*except my ex-bf,i guess he was half-blinded at that time =p*

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i never regret the fact that i left my ex,although he might be the only one that ever fall for me so dearly.

i am sorry it didn't work out for us.

i was with you for 2 years, you made me smile a lot.

and we might find this funny in the next 10-15 years.

Iron man

being a grown up it's totally complicated.

now i can clearly see that.

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i want to own expensive things,(which i have to earn to get it!)

i want to have fun with fun people.

i want to keep my job.i am still loving it.

i want to further my study as soon as i want it to end.

i want to be loved and to love.

i want to have my own family.a tiny one as a start.

i need a car.

i need money.lots of it.

i need a partner who will grow old WITH me.

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there's to much.

i guess i currently just have a ruffled mind.

owh ya, i forgot.

people around me keep on complaining about me.

it's bugging me somehow.

what i wear,

what i eat,

do i look that ugly?

i need to get back with my healthier diet.

''hey you look fat than before"

"kau hodoh dan gemuk."

"mana lah tak sihat badan,hari2 makan mcm tu?"

well,they actually motivated me.

somehow i feel humiliated,

but, if we look at the bright side, they were right.

if the changes they want to see will make me a better person,

why not?

Yahoo!

more is less

less is more...

ever heard it before?

it's actually true.. :D

Fragile

i hate this part.

where my emotion are everywhere.

i feel like crying over unnecessary things.

am i that fragile?

or am i just so tired without realising that i am totally exhausted?

i want to get over it!

and i think that i need a break.

life is hard.

and tough.

but going through this without skipping any scenes

will definitely make me realise,

that life is brief.

i don't want to miss a thing.

so do this part.

Bold 9700!

there will always be the time when you are down.

feels like your emotion flushed away.

and burst all over the place.

at that time.

nothing seems to look right.

in fact,nothing is right.

and no good advice will ever fit.

..................

the hardest part will be the healling part.

it's so slow!

but time heals!

no worries! :)

The Big Smile *Wink*

i'm not trying so hard beacause i don't have to.

i don't need to

......

i've been thinking about the same thing recently.

i am smiling for the same reason each time.

i am listening to the same music everyday.

but,

i see everything with a different side of angle and enjoy each and every moment of it.

without any sense of hesitation.

i am blessed.

Alhamdulillah.

Stay

i dont care if they never meant to stay.

what does really matter is,

they at least once used to be the person(s) who made me happy

or maybe made me dancing in the shower,

laughing while singing

and smiling while sleeping.

-your life is never tied to anyone,

when people walk away from your life,

that doesn't mean that they are bad people.

it's just their part in your story has just ended.

let it be and live your life!

2 in a row.

yesterday,

it was fun!

i'm with the fun peoples,

extremely best movies.

and good games.

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pakcik, you were right about RED.

bruce willis sgt macho and still hot! fuh~

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most of the time,if we were in an awkward situation,

we usually won't fit in easily right?

but at least try to adapt!

you look a bit silly,by not trying.

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double it's definitely not such a bad idea after all. :)

V for Vendetta

i feel bad for everything i have said.

ok,here's the things.

kenapa, aku nak ignore all the good things about her just because

the rumours i have just heard.

oh,no it's not a rumours.

it's actually true.

everybody make mistakes.

so do i,so does she.

what makes us so damn different?

nothing right?

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i crash someone's privacy and i coincidently did found out the truth about it and i feel bad, i feel the anger burning out and my emotion burst.

crashing someone's privacy pun dah salah tau.

i don't know.i still feel bad.

in fact,if she does what ever she does right now make her happy or make her get all the attention,

siapa aku untuk menghalang?

siapa aku untuk judge semua nya?

siapa aku untuk komen semua benda.

kenapa aku nak sibuk2 search for the truth bila perbuatan aku tu hanya menambah rasa yang kurang enak?

aku terlalu fokus pada masalah.

bukan pada penyelesaian

aku sibuk mengumpul kesalahan,

mengumpul evidence konon.

buat apa?

i'm so stupid.

.............

Nuri

Sentimental is resulting from feeling rather than reason or thought.

i am a sentimental person.

i knew it,

but i have to slow down, or should i say i have to stop being one?

i have to put an end to it somehow.

i mean i have to put an end to the unnecessary things!

i kept them for so long.and i provided them a huge space.

i threw away lots of thing lately.

and i expected to throw lot more. :)

Melayu Hijau

(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything
and everything and I will always care. Through weakness
and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

N8

jantung aku terhenti selama 2 saat dan kembali berdegup dengan sangat perlahan selama 5 saat.

bila.

terjadi satu insiden spontan semalam. gila.

spontan.kaget.

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Pierre Cardin

do i have to let the whole world know how happy i am right now? =)

no,i don't have to.people may not like it.

they would never feel the same exact feeling.

.....

i do like someone and something.

but i would rather let it be a statement than a question.

it's too risky to make a question out of it.

because i know, i hate not to know the answer later on.

expectation is definitely a disappointment.

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i don't need a feedback,

sebab,

aku tak tahu samada tindakan aku ini betul atau tepat atau salah,

tapi aku yakin dan pasti dengan apa yang aku buat.itu lebih penting.

swatch-swiss

if it's doesn't make me feel to change.

i won't change anything because other's said so.

i won't.

i need a concrete reason to do so.

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i love my job.

i love what i do.

pasti ada suatu cara untuk meng-imbang-kan semua benda dan semua perasaan.

buat salah tak salah.

salah bila tak belajar dr kesalahan.

lagi teruk bila kita tak tahu pun kita salah. :P

cari lah,dan baiki

atau ubah cara untuk melaluinya.

selagi mampu dan punya waktu.

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"rancang dan buatlah apa yang kita suka,tapi jangan suka-suka buat," - (N.M.Rosli,2010)

In Fear and Faith

8th - 10th October 2010.

Redang Venture PUB Bangi 2010.

pergi dan tiba.

bergembira.

ber-snorkeling

ber-panah-panah.

bersukaneka

bermandi - manda

bersoal jawab

bersiar2 di persisiran.

bergambar

pulang.

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kenangan memang telah dicipta.

sengaja mencipta pun ada.

itu,itu,dia,dia,ini,ini,dia dan itu. :)

why, seven, four four, two?

i didn't know that site visit would be that fun!

it was super fun. :)

but the thing is.

why on earth i can't talk straight to the eyes!

i mean...

what i meant was.

ah.

i can't really describe the feeling.

DAMN.

............

nervous? naaaa....impossible

butterflies in the stomach, way tooooo much, no la,next!

falling? definite NO. i guarantee.

as far as i am concerned...

the crushing2 things were gone.

but it seems like,

there are three possibilities:

1) the crushing2 did not leave,never did.

2)the feeling was gone,but it pass by seasonally

3)whether i didn't let go the feeling, or i just simply don't want it to go.

.....................

my heartbeat does not beat any faster than normal.

i don't have the butterflies in my stomach

i still eat, mandi and tidur.

so,the feeling does not effect much right?

so why bother? =p

but, what ever it is.

i am glad that i managed to control the feeling and focusing on my aim to work hard and work smart.

i able to face the feeling unconditionally and without hesitation.

and i love myself because i don't act normal. i am being normal.

blackberry curve

dulu aku pernah letak tajuk entri pokok puding. tapi entri langsung tak ada kene mengena.

*mcm banyak je entri dgn tajuk tak ada kene mengenakan. =p

ini lah pokok puding :P :P

saja je.tengah gatal.tengah gatal.

size 7

i have the best time of my life right now.

the best yet to come.

baru dapat result sem 6 dimana exam ade 6 paper

plus industrial training 3bulan

so,sem 6 aku complete kan dlm 9bulan la :)

boleh beranak tau nak completekan sem 6 nie. :P

tapi, 3 bulan industrial training berakhir sgt cpt. :(

hasil dari 9bulan aku mengandungkan sem 6 itu :

GPA : 3.90

CGPA : 3.44

:) :) :)

the feeling was like WHOAA best!

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another one good news is.

dah dapat offer letter jd staff PUB.

awwww~

so jawatan dlm organisasi ialah

pembantu juuukur bahan. weeee~

sign contract percubaan 3bulan.

kalau ade rezeki sambung degree.

bulan 12 bye2 la PUB :(

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hey Mr P.H.

115mm thick brick wall make no different.

nice shoes! :)

Winding journey.

if you could see what i see.

you are the answer to my prayers

if you could feel the tenderness i feel

you would know it will be clear that

angel brought me here.

8-2-3-5

tetap.

yang hitam manis itu pandang tak jemu.

aku pelik

masih kurang mengerti.

yang hitam juga lebih manis.

Pulanglah

orang berahsia sebab?

sebab tak nak orang tahu.

orang nak tahu sebab?

sebab orang tak nak bagi tahu.

kenapa orang tak nak bgtau?

sebab bukan semua orang faham mcm mana yg kita faham.

kenapa org still nak tahu juga?

sebab ia menarik,tertarik dan di tarik.

kenapa mcm tu pulak?

eloborate sendiri.

It's sweet when someone knows every single detail about you. Not because you constantly remind them, but because they pay attention.- (Myra A 2010)

Dear Antidotes

cukup.

3 bulan, tiada satu hari pun sepanjang 3 bulan itu aku rasa mahu mengalah.

mengeluh tu adalah. aku ingat 3 bulan tu lama benar,
rupanya 3 bulan tu mcm 3 hari je. cit. tertipu tau. =p

dari kebodohan aku sendiri yang tidak mahu belajar bersungguh2 semasa bergelar
pelajar diploma ukur bahan dulu aku akan tebus balik.

i know my limit.

aku sangat bersemangat.
sebab keterujaan aku selalunya mengatasi banyak perkara.

salah aku la, tak kuat bila sendiri selama 3thun tu.
sebab itu aku sgt hargai 3bulan ini.

sebab aku kuat bukan sendirian.

orang sekeliling sangat positif.
aku teruja.
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for letting me shine.

for allowing me to show some of my best qualities.

for providing me with the best environment ever,

for having lunch together(so that,i don't have to have my lunch alone in the car :p),

for not leaving me hanging.

for teaching me how to use the photostat machine, fax machine, microsoft excel, how to bind file.

for the first real site visit,

for the mileage claim,

for the laughters,

for being the best weekend tutor =),

for crawling,walking and running WITH me,

the joy.

the brainwashs

the tears,

the allowances,

the duit raya,

the picnic,

and for everything nice,

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

you-know-who-you-are.

i promise i work harder! :)

"Banganglah mesin fotostat ni"

bila kite cakap pasal orang lain belakang2,
mesti kita akan rasa insecure somehow,somewhat

thinking yang sure orang lain pun ckp2 behind our back.

bila kita ingat kat seseorang,
mesti kite wonder if that person thinking about you or not kan?

bile kita suka orang tu,
sure kita ade terselit angan2 untuk grow old together kan?

bila kite ada secret,
pastu mesti somehow kita rase nak bagtau juga2 someone,

walau bende tu secret kan?

kenapa suka complicate things?
kenapa suka konon play safe.?

hehehehehe aku,aku. poyo betul.

after all kan,i admit i don't really have secrets.

sebab, i love sharing.

i love giving.

being safe is the new risk.

so,memang aku suka hidup dlm drama.

tapi come on,realistik sikit boleh? :P

hey.ye aku mengaku yang aku suka dicari.
dan aku tak kisah jika sesiapa terjumpa aku.

but i do hope,
bile org cari aku,jumpa.
next time die cari lagi. :)

poyo la aku ni. enough.

Nasi Arab Kambing :D

aku pelik betul la!

setiap kali aku lawat profile facebook antidotes aku kan,

mesti muncul mutual friend yg sama.
dia random kan?

tapi kenapa dia mesti ade sebagai mutual friend tu.

kenapa eh?

everytime. musykil betul. kelakar pun ada.

i mean, pegi wall org pun ade,
pegi kat home pun ada.

hahahaha jgn terbawa dlm mimpi sudey~

mengarut betul!

Handkerchief

it's been 3 months!

mcm laju gila la masa berlalu. i don't know. aku enjoy. bahagia.

bukan sebab seseorang tapi sebab ramai orang.

aku tidak mahu terlalu selesa, takut aku akan panik bila tidak selesa kelak.

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ok,tiba2 aku nak jadi poyo tahap dewa ke 21 sekarang ni.

that day, buka puasa kat Palm Garden.
i know the crush2 ni dah gone kan....

but then,aku rasa best masa ambil makanan hari tu.
takde ape2 pun,but...but...but.....

it just simply sweet.moment.

bukan aku yg sweet,
bukan die yang sweet.
moment tu je yg sweet.

itu saja.fullstop.

enough.

silly kan?

Vodafone

two more weeks left for me to grab anything within my sight.

for those who didn't get the chances same as i do :

1) I'm sorry for taking the opportunity.

2)i need the opportunity for my own sake.

3) i am sorry for not helping to appoint you.

4) i am sorry for being a very hyper-active talker. i know sometimes i annoyed.

5) although i knew that u want this kind of opportunity so badly but i end up getting it, i am truly sorry.

6) for lots of reason i need to comfort myself in the situation, i dont want to end up being demotivated AGAIN. i want to gain by get through the pain.

7)i am sorry once again, this is me.


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i'll walk with you because we are in the same lane.

but sometimes i need to run a little bit,

don't worry, i am not leaving you,

i'll make sure i look back to make sure u are still there.

because, when you need to run later, i might be at your back.

i do hope that you at least glimpse at me.

Blackberry

apa yang boleh aku kata ialah.

hari ini sangat cool.

mengapa?

tidak ketahuan.

mungkin-kah?

mungkin-kah?

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cerita lain pula,
aku suka lelaki itu berseluar hitam itu.
sangat kemas dan segak.haha

Hotel Tiada Sijil HALAL.

24 hotel mempromosikan Bufet Ramadhan yang tidak mematuhi piawaian halal mulai 1-10 Ramadhan.

1.One World Hotel First Avanue,PJ

2.Bistro & Theatere Restaurant,KL

3.Impiana KLCC Hotel & Spa,KL

4.Hotel Equatorial, KL

5.Shangri-La Putrajaya

6.Hotel Nikko,KL

7.Shah's Village Hotel,PJ

8.Presscott Inn,Kajang

9.Lagenda Cuisine Sdn Bhd,Kajang

10.Oriental Crystal,Kajang

11.Restoran Tupai-Tupai,Kajang

12.Eastin Hotel,PJ

13.Concorde Hotel,KL

14.Novotel KLCC,KL

15.Bangi Golf Restaurant

16.Cititel Mid Valley,KL

17.Kanpei Restaurant,KL

18.The Zon All Suites Residence,KL

19.The Royale Bintang,KL

20.R & B Services,Berjaya Times Square,KL

21.The Saujana KL,Saujana Resort

22.Hilton,KL

23.Le Meridien,KL

24.The Regency Hotel.KL

Si Kancil

every ten minutes,

i'll check my phone. whether ada new messages ke tak.
annoying gile kot.

i don't know i'm waiting for who.
but it bothering me so damn much.

hahahahaha.

owh, aku ni gatal. maksud aku, aku ada elergi kepada seafood.
tapi aku tak suka mengaku.

sekrang aku cuma kata aku elergi pada dua benda sahaja.
ketam dan lala.
bile makan 2 nie aku tak dapat tipu dah =p

"Cough and Love can not be hidden what-so-ever"

Stay

sekarang aku mahu berbicara tentang hati dan perasaan.

poyo kan statement aku? =p

1. the crush has officially ended last Saturday. yes exactly on Saturday.

i don't know where the feeling flies. but it's definitely gone. i am glad that the feeling were not meant to stay :)

2. although the crush is over, i still writes about him

maybe the "crushing2'' has ended but my story still involving lots of people, he is not excluded.

3. i knew the crushing2 thing was gone when i talked to him yesterday without having the butterflies in my stomach. i don't feel like seeing him. i don't feel like searching for him anymore.

4. i have a good feeling about everything right now.

everything went well. my practical session, health, family, friends, money, basically everything.

5. Ramadhan is great! i tremendously love Ramadhan :)

it's not about feeling hungry and thirsty, it's about how Ramadhan has unite my family member every year. we will perform Magrhib, tarawikh, breaking fast, and sahur together. Thats mean a lot to me.

moreover, balik kerja pukul 4.30pm. i able to fetch Alya on time everyday. :)

6. i am insisting of buying new handphone for myself by October :)

i meant blackberry =p

Hitam itu Manis

kawan aku bising,
bila borak aku akan cerita pasal kerja.
teman lelaki dia pun cerita pasal kerja.
lama2 dia pun tahu pasal dunia Ukur Bahan ni.
hehehehe

seorang lagi kawan aku,
belajar biotechnology,
sekarang kerja sementara tolong abg dia.
pasal dunia construction.

so basically, 2 kawan yg aku suka sgt2 extra cheese suka punya,
telah involved secara tak langsung dalam dunia aku.

aku tak ramai kawan,
tapi Allah itu Maha Adil,

:)

Steamboat

"aku tak suka mempergunakan waktu ofis"
-P.H 2010

perkara baru akan jadi sejarah juga :)

being alive is wonderful.

i have a dream,
and i'm going to be a dream chaser.


all i need is the guts and the will power.

selamat tinggal perkara lagho

selamat pergi perasaan berkocak.

jumpa kalian lagi di masa2 tertentu :)

Inception

although i have a crush on him.

i never imagine my future life with him.

it's not that i don't want to think about it.
i just can't imagine.

because,somehow, somewhat.
i knew that he is not the one :)

great isn't it?
=)

full stop.

Purple with Grey Strip

i do really hope that i don't give my whole heart

to someone that cannot hold it tight.

who ever you are.

where ever you might be.

i'll wait.

We Must Be the Change We Wish to See

aku tengah kaya.

jadi aku sangat kedekut sekarang.

bukan kaya wang ringgit.
tapi kaya dengan kesenangan hati.

walaupun aku sedang kaya,
aku tak rasa aku nak tukar apa2 pun yang aku ada sekrang dengan benda lain.

jadi jelas la aku ni kedekut kan?

hehehehehehe

aku ada keluarga.

aku ada Hanan dan kawan2.

aku ada antidotes

aku ada suasana kerja yg membahagiakan

aku ada rumah yang 'warm'

aku rasa cukup.puas.

aku takkan cari yang lebih baik. sebab yang lebih baik akan tiba bila masanya.

Blub Blub Blub

dulu.

benda tu jadi
sekarang jadi lagi.

nasib baik dulu tak melibatkan perasaan yang dalam.
sekarang pun belum.

dulu dah jadi.
sekarang dah separuh jadi.

nak tak nak.
keadaan tetap sama.
cuma yang berubah,
tempat dan orang yang terlibat.

hahahaha.

lagipun, ini bukan pertandingan.
ini bukan perlumbaan
bukan juga pergaduhan.

jadi, aku bukan la mengalah kepada sesiapa.
cuma beringat lah sendiri kan.

realiti kehidupan.
adalah pilihan.
sama ada nak terima atau tidak.
take it or leave it.

adapt with the environment.and enjoy every beat of it.


"someone worth knowing will discover your true quality sooner or later"

i rather wait.

Husna, ok tak?

mcm mana orang boleh melafazkan cinta dengan sangat mudah dan sgt berani?

mcm mana orang boleh tahu,oh itu lah insan yang aku cinta?

mcm mana orang boleh terima cinta orang lain?

cinta itu realistik

atau

realistik itu cinta?

ah,perkara yang tak perlu di fikirkan.

tapi fikir juga.hahahaha

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i get myself confused again.hahahaha

knock it off.

ini bukan masanya.

aku bukan orangnya.

di sini bukan tempatnya.

mungkin memang aku ditakdirkan mempunyai fizikal begini

untuk menjaga diri dengan pengalaman orang lain. =)

nak kata aku pemerhati,semua orang pun juga.

nak aku pendengar,semua org pun dengar.

memang aku sedang mencari realiti hidup.

di mana keadaan dan situasi tidak bercanggah dengan kondisi hati dan jasad.

Double H

"Husna, bos nak amik kau kerja, as a temporary staff."

"sebelum kau sambung blajar balik,kau nak sambung blajar kan?" he added

tiba2 aku kaget.terkesima. bukan apa,aku memang nak sambung kerja kat situ,
sebab aku rasa 3bulan aku latihan industri tak cukup.
kerja pun seronok, org sekeliling pun best.
belajar pun banyak.

walau banyak aku belajar.
lebih banyak yg belum aku belum belajar :D

mula2 aku memang rasa confident nak utarakan hal ini ke bos.

tapi lately,aku dapat rasa kualiti aku kerja merosot.i mean,perasaan tu boleh rasa kan.
mungkin sebab sume kerja yg aku buat nak kejar dateline. so, fokus macam bersepah sikit.

so,aku pun mcm malu la nak ckp boleh tak aku sambung...
buat rugi syarikat je.

tapi sekarang aku fikir mcm nie :

1) kepercayaan dan keyakinan orang lain memang susah nak dpt.

2) i will take this as a big compliment for myself.

3) grab seberapa banyak mengikut kemampuan dan kapasiti.

surrender betul2 bukan dlm kamus.

"you have to make a lot of mistake to make things right."

aku akan terus bersemangat...

Durian,Kg Chennah

ok.

i was having so much fun!

it's like, dah lama gila kot tak rasa fun mcm sekrang.

but then,

tibe2 jadi mcm tak faham pula.
susah hati aku.
susah hati.

i thought i could get the time of my life by doing what i love to do as i like.

i didn't know it did break some hearts.

sometimes,i just need a time out.

that's all.

A.B.C

to whom it may concerned.

i love you.

i will never say that i love everything about you,
because i never did.

i love you,

just the way you are.

Guess I'm Falling For You

When I look into your eyes
I see sunshine
The clouds are blown away
I hope you're here to stay
'Cause you've got me needing more of you
Guess I'm falling for you

You walk away
My eyes caress you
Then you turn and smile
You've caught me thinkin' of love with you
Guess I'm falling, I may be falling for you

Since I met you days are brighter
Life's uneven loads are lighter
When I hear you whisper the words I long to hear dear
Now I look into your eyes
I'm lost in knowing that you are all I want
My need for you is growing
Guess I'm falling, I think I'm falling for you
Think about falling for me too

Seribu Sembilan Ratus Lapan Puluh Enam

perempuan,
memang tak sah kalau tak bergosip.

eleh.
lelaki pun.

hahahaha,
aku kenalah ber-ingat,
bila banyak cakap,
banyak la salah.

bila banyak cakap,
banyak lah yang kita cerita.
banyak la ketidak-sempurnaan dan kecacatan diri sendiri
yang di pertengahkan.

sebab,hakikatnya,
semua orang pun menilai.

kan?kan?

bukan semua cerita kita orang nak dgr,
sebab aku pun tak dengar semua benda.

sebab,
kepentingan seseorang adalah dlm suatu keadaan tertentu.
bukan dalam semua keadaan.

ingat tu.

Along

one minute you are up,

two minutes your are down.

held your head up high.

and don't ever be worried.

because i will always be two steps behind you.

if you stumbled, don't be ashamed to cry.

i'll be your shoulder.

Twenty Sixteen

The wires has been fixed.
oh yeah,oh yeah!

having a crush on someone and falling for someone are two different things kan?

Chy Penawar said, sama.

Stanum said, depends.- falling and crushing at the same time.*that make sense*

falling

crushing.

silly.


ok now i am complicate things. i can clearly see that.

i rather stumble and cry.

rather that being crushed and die. or falling and paralyze.

Neeko

short update.

today.
i was haunted by your face.
the calmest face i ever see for the past couple months.

everywhere i go,
everything i do.
i saw your face.

i was haunted.
that's creepy.
and nonsense.

mungkin ade wayar putus di mana2.
barangkali ya,
sebab aku belagak sangat kata dia tu lembik dan liat.

sila jangan tenung aku lagi.
bukan menakutkan
bimbang lebih banyak wayar putus.

hahahahaha.

ok,this short update is definitely stupid.

weeeeeeeeeeeee~

tomorrow i will fix the wires and box it up.

crush2 go away.

Budak Kamus

Bank Rakyat oh Bank Rakyat.

PNB oh PNB.

i have to measure floor finishes.elevated carpark. Glad, i have Amir as my team mate!
Amir! we are in this together.

easy huh?!

senang, tapi takut salah bahagikan bahagian.
submission date will be on Wednesday morning.

PNB, first draft lepas.
tapi ada addition itu dan ini.

Isnin meeting dgn the engineers.tak tau aku terlibat ke tak.
aku rasa aku kena join jugak sebab by end of the day PNB projek boleh kate baby angkat aku la kan.aku kena edit juga kan.nasib aku bukan buat seorang. thanks korang.

Rabu submit Bank Rakyat.
Rabu juga maybe ada kena pergi buat assesment balik kat PNB tu.

Sangat bersyukur sebab pengalaman yang aku dapat buat aku rasa puas untuk setakat ini.
banyak lagi perlu belajar.
banyak lagi.

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Surrender is definitely not an option! =)

hey,insan penenang hati.
terima kasih.
kau best.noktah.

Mentos

aku tengah enjoy.

aku cuba tidak lalai.
aku cuba tidak bongkak.
aku cuba mengawal emosi.

aku memang suka tengok dan perhati benda2 yang remeh2
kadang2 orang pun tak suka ingat.

aku suka ingat apa yang suka ingat.
secara tepat.

mungkin kalau aku suka seseorang atau sesuatu,
aku akan lebih berminat untuk tahu lebih.

tapi,tak semestinya aku tahu segalanya.

dan semestinya aku tak perlu tahu semuanya.
dan aku tidak mahu orang anggap aku tahu semua tentang sesuatu hal.

tentang org lain,sesuatu yang lain juga aku akan ambil tahu.
bukan hanya tertutup pada skop2 peribadi.


hidup adalah indah,tetapi tak semua yang indah itu hidup :)

Superseded

life so many friends we lost along the way.

it happened.

i used to make lots of friends and lost them

i know that their part has ended in my story.

at one time, i stopped making new friends.

until i realized that i was overprotecting my feelings.

i thought it was fragile.

my heart is tougher than i ever imagined it could be.

i let them in for better reasons.

somehow,

friends are one of the best antidotes.

ok.aku terasa poyo.

Sejak terpandang wajahmu
Hatiku bertanya selalu
Siapa dia mengikat pandanganku

Seringkali dia berlalu
Di hadapan dan menyapaku
Sehingga hatiku seringkali merindu
Tak dapat ku melupakan dirinya
Terbayang wajahmu di mataku

Ingin ku tanya namanya
Tapi hatiku rasa malu
Tak terucapkan walau sepatah kata
Mungkinkah diriku telah dilamun cinta
Oh… hatiku resah selalu

Haruskah aku menyatakan
Perasaanku kepadanya
Mungkinkah dia kini telah berpunya
Getar hati makin terasa
Bila terdengar suara dan bertentang mata
Ku bagaikan bebunga kehujanan
Berkembang mekar
Di setiap ketika

Tidur malamku tak lena
Asyik teringat padanya
Bilakah mentari memancarkan cahaya
Hanyalah dirinya bermain diingatan
Oh…tuhan ku rindu padanya