why, seven, four four, two?

i didn't know that site visit would be that fun!

it was super fun. :)

but the thing is.

why on earth i can't talk straight to the eyes!

i mean...

what i meant was.

ah.

i can't really describe the feeling.

DAMN.

............

nervous? naaaa....impossible

butterflies in the stomach, way tooooo much, no la,next!

falling? definite NO. i guarantee.

as far as i am concerned...

the crushing2 things were gone.

but it seems like,

there are three possibilities:

1) the crushing2 did not leave,never did.

2)the feeling was gone,but it pass by seasonally

3)whether i didn't let go the feeling, or i just simply don't want it to go.

.....................

my heartbeat does not beat any faster than normal.

i don't have the butterflies in my stomach

i still eat, mandi and tidur.

so,the feeling does not effect much right?

so why bother? =p

but, what ever it is.

i am glad that i managed to control the feeling and focusing on my aim to work hard and work smart.

i able to face the feeling unconditionally and without hesitation.

and i love myself because i don't act normal. i am being normal.

blackberry curve

dulu aku pernah letak tajuk entri pokok puding. tapi entri langsung tak ada kene mengena.

*mcm banyak je entri dgn tajuk tak ada kene mengenakan. =p

ini lah pokok puding :P :P

saja je.tengah gatal.tengah gatal.

size 7

i have the best time of my life right now.

the best yet to come.

baru dapat result sem 6 dimana exam ade 6 paper

plus industrial training 3bulan

so,sem 6 aku complete kan dlm 9bulan la :)

boleh beranak tau nak completekan sem 6 nie. :P

tapi, 3 bulan industrial training berakhir sgt cpt. :(

hasil dari 9bulan aku mengandungkan sem 6 itu :

GPA : 3.90

CGPA : 3.44

:) :) :)

the feeling was like WHOAA best!

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another one good news is.

dah dapat offer letter jd staff PUB.

awwww~

so jawatan dlm organisasi ialah

pembantu juuukur bahan. weeee~

sign contract percubaan 3bulan.

kalau ade rezeki sambung degree.

bulan 12 bye2 la PUB :(

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hey Mr P.H.

115mm thick brick wall make no different.

nice shoes! :)

Winding journey.

if you could see what i see.

you are the answer to my prayers

if you could feel the tenderness i feel

you would know it will be clear that

angel brought me here.

8-2-3-5

tetap.

yang hitam manis itu pandang tak jemu.

aku pelik

masih kurang mengerti.

yang hitam juga lebih manis.

Pulanglah

orang berahsia sebab?

sebab tak nak orang tahu.

orang nak tahu sebab?

sebab orang tak nak bagi tahu.

kenapa orang tak nak bgtau?

sebab bukan semua orang faham mcm mana yg kita faham.

kenapa org still nak tahu juga?

sebab ia menarik,tertarik dan di tarik.

kenapa mcm tu pulak?

eloborate sendiri.

It's sweet when someone knows every single detail about you. Not because you constantly remind them, but because they pay attention.- (Myra A 2010)

Dear Antidotes

cukup.

3 bulan, tiada satu hari pun sepanjang 3 bulan itu aku rasa mahu mengalah.

mengeluh tu adalah. aku ingat 3 bulan tu lama benar,
rupanya 3 bulan tu mcm 3 hari je. cit. tertipu tau. =p

dari kebodohan aku sendiri yang tidak mahu belajar bersungguh2 semasa bergelar
pelajar diploma ukur bahan dulu aku akan tebus balik.

i know my limit.

aku sangat bersemangat.
sebab keterujaan aku selalunya mengatasi banyak perkara.

salah aku la, tak kuat bila sendiri selama 3thun tu.
sebab itu aku sgt hargai 3bulan ini.

sebab aku kuat bukan sendirian.

orang sekeliling sangat positif.
aku teruja.
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for letting me shine.

for allowing me to show some of my best qualities.

for providing me with the best environment ever,

for having lunch together(so that,i don't have to have my lunch alone in the car :p),

for not leaving me hanging.

for teaching me how to use the photostat machine, fax machine, microsoft excel, how to bind file.

for the first real site visit,

for the mileage claim,

for the laughters,

for being the best weekend tutor =),

for crawling,walking and running WITH me,

the joy.

the brainwashs

the tears,

the allowances,

the duit raya,

the picnic,

and for everything nice,

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

you-know-who-you-are.

i promise i work harder! :)

"Banganglah mesin fotostat ni"

bila kite cakap pasal orang lain belakang2,
mesti kita akan rasa insecure somehow,somewhat

thinking yang sure orang lain pun ckp2 behind our back.

bila kita ingat kat seseorang,
mesti kite wonder if that person thinking about you or not kan?

bile kita suka orang tu,
sure kita ade terselit angan2 untuk grow old together kan?

bila kite ada secret,
pastu mesti somehow kita rase nak bagtau juga2 someone,

walau bende tu secret kan?

kenapa suka complicate things?
kenapa suka konon play safe.?

hehehehehe aku,aku. poyo betul.

after all kan,i admit i don't really have secrets.

sebab, i love sharing.

i love giving.

being safe is the new risk.

so,memang aku suka hidup dlm drama.

tapi come on,realistik sikit boleh? :P

hey.ye aku mengaku yang aku suka dicari.
dan aku tak kisah jika sesiapa terjumpa aku.

but i do hope,
bile org cari aku,jumpa.
next time die cari lagi. :)

poyo la aku ni. enough.

Nasi Arab Kambing :D

aku pelik betul la!

setiap kali aku lawat profile facebook antidotes aku kan,

mesti muncul mutual friend yg sama.
dia random kan?

tapi kenapa dia mesti ade sebagai mutual friend tu.

kenapa eh?

everytime. musykil betul. kelakar pun ada.

i mean, pegi wall org pun ade,
pegi kat home pun ada.

hahahaha jgn terbawa dlm mimpi sudey~

mengarut betul!

Handkerchief

it's been 3 months!

mcm laju gila la masa berlalu. i don't know. aku enjoy. bahagia.

bukan sebab seseorang tapi sebab ramai orang.

aku tidak mahu terlalu selesa, takut aku akan panik bila tidak selesa kelak.

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ok,tiba2 aku nak jadi poyo tahap dewa ke 21 sekarang ni.

that day, buka puasa kat Palm Garden.
i know the crush2 ni dah gone kan....

but then,aku rasa best masa ambil makanan hari tu.
takde ape2 pun,but...but...but.....

it just simply sweet.moment.

bukan aku yg sweet,
bukan die yang sweet.
moment tu je yg sweet.

itu saja.fullstop.

enough.

silly kan?